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This journal is inspired by Joanie's!!! Thank you Joanie!!!I am estranged from my father and step-mother because they disapproved of the way I had Cassi dressed in her casket. Of all things...Of all...

I don't want to jinx myself...I'm not superstitious, but I don't want to jinx myself, lol. After several weeks, maybe even months, I am actually starting to feel better. I feel like the cloud over my...

I spoke to another grieving Mom today who lost her daughter about a year before I lost Cassi. The circumstances were very, very similiar. She reached out to me a few weeks after I lost Cassi and we...

WHile we were watching the Weather Channel this afternoon I was reading what was scrolling along the bottom and I saw the word Flagler...a trigger...Cassi and I went toSaint Augustine several years...

I am always recommending books I find helpful but I am needing some recommendations now. I read a book a day, so I go through them...of course books dealing with grieving that have really helped...

Has anyone made a big move after the loss of their child??? If so, would you say it helped??? Cassi always wanted to move away from here, far, far away. Either New England east coast or Pacific...

I was watching the Weather Channel today, in coastal Florida we are having to keep an eye on the weather this week. The reporter was standing onthe beach, and even though the waves were a bit rough,...

I found a blog writer that took my breath away. It popped up on my Facebook and I clicked on it and soon had read all of her entries. Her name is Kristen Thomson Sheely and her blog is through...

Can't sleep...reading Radical Survivor...the book about the woman who lost her husband and 2 small children in a plane crash. She doesn't write in a style I necessarily like, I am about halfway...

There is something else I want to share today. Last Saturday was Cassi's birthday and was the toughest so far. Last week I cried everyday and felt the tension build the nearer the weekend got....

I think I have said before how I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. Being practically homebound and not a phone person it is my best way of staying in contact with people. But I also have...

I don't usually recommend books I haven't read yet, but these 2 are special and are on the way. One is "Radical Survivor" true story about a woman who battled breast cancer twice before she was 40,...

Well, this was a week from hell with a rotten cherry on top. All week I anticipated today, Cassi's birthday, hoping I could find joy in the day but terrified of the pain. There was some joy. a few...

Here I am again...I am desperate and looking for comfort and relief wherever I might be able to find it. I just don't understand why I am so damned depressed...I have had many decent days in the past...

As Cassi's birthday gets closer I can feel the anxiety and depression building. I am still going to smile that day, and remember to be grateful...but I am so shaky right now.How is it that Mommy-time...