ginachurchwell1970

Hard to believe it's the middle of April already!!! I haven't written in a while, sometimes I need a break. Sometimes I need a break from most everything.I went to my diet doctor yesterday (drove...

Feeling better since the last few posts...part of the natural ebb and flow of grief, and I believe I am perimenopausal so my hormones are off the rail on a crazy train.It's a self-diagnosis, haven't...

Still suffering, missing my baby...I had a dream, sort of, of needing to borrow her shoes so I did and I sort of woke up feeling like, she'd never have worn those shoes again...it really is...

My cousin, who is a nurse, contacted me about a friend of her who is also a nurse. They were talking late into the night and the friend brought up a story about how a couple of years ago when she and...

No cruise for me...much to my mother and sister's disappointment, it just wasn't meant to be. As the time got closer, the days ticked by onward to our departure date, both my husband and myself felt...

I am strung very tight lately, highly emotional...not good at all. Next week is a cruise I am going on with my sister and mother. I am terrified. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's hard to leave...

Raging Pain, white hot and black as night at the same time. Everyone failed Cassi...everyone, especially me. All I wanted for her was a normal healthy life. She was clinically depressed...but what...

I  made it through another day, another horrible anniversary of the worst day of my life. Right or wrong, I went with my instinct and spent most of the day in bed. I did not visit the gravesite. I...

It's tomorrow. I don't know the exact time, the ME's office didn't see fit to find out despite my pleas. I really wanted to know. This pain...you know...2 short years...a lifetime. Where is...

2 years ago, I had relaxed, slightly...Cassi seemed to be in good spirits. In 3 days she would be gone.How the hell did I end up here??? The pain is overwhelming. Whatcan I do??? How can I get...

February 2nd will be the second anniversary. Cassi shot herself, she killed herself and for a long long time nothing else mattered. I am in that place again. Nothing matters and I don't want to wake...

I am in hibernation...haven't been on in quite a while. Just wanted to let everyone know I am okay, just needing a lot of solitude, even on the web. On the downside, my shingles have come back. I...

Well, next month, February 2nd will be two years since I lost Cassi. Since she committed suicide. With a gun I gave her. We got the phone call and I didn't know how to breathe.I see many posts about...

Does anyone else feel this way??? I think after what I have been through I should be able to cruise through the rest of my life...why do I still have problems??? I have been through the fires of...

Well, it's pretty much over, thank God...I bought new Christmas trees today, half price, and a few new ornaments so I definitely plan on putting up Christmas trees next year...glad this one is over.