ginachurchwell1970

I have 2 different topics I want to write about, one happy, one sad.Okay, for the happy.....I was at lunch yesterday at Red Elephant. We were talking about Cassi and although I had been in a good...

Soooo....scrolling Facebook again. Why do I torment myself? I was/am a good mother. I know this sounds judgemental, but damn, after all I have been through I am going to judge. I see other women my...

Got back on...okay, in case of emergencies I am going to share my personal e-mail account. Just PM me and I will give it to you and also get yours so I have a way of communicating during the worst...

Well, for starters, my priorities have drastically changed since I lost Cassi. Of course. But it seems like a lot of things are hitting me all at once, things I never really expected to happen to...

People told me the second year would be harder than the first year. I don't know if I can say it is worse but it's pretty bad, in different ways. It is just that sense of "Oh...it's going to be this...

Am I Under Attack??I have had a few strange responses and messages over the last few days leaving me feel more vulnerable and defensive.I know we all grieve differently and are at different stages in...

Trolling through Facebook can be an emotional minefield...Halloween was Cassi's favorite holiday. She would spend weeks making her own amazing costumes...so I see her friends getting dressed to go...

I'm back, my anger has burned out, just leaving me sad. I would rather be angry...but anger is not my default emotion and it takes a lot to get me to that level of rage and then it's hard to...

Visited elderly relatives in Tennessee the last few days, and as they are wont to do, they had to share all the news of cousins, distant relatives, people I don't know and never have met. It really,...

I had an encounter today with a pair of grieving parents. They are only 2 months into the journey, and while trying to carry on it is so apparent, to me anyway, how broken and devastated they are....

I feel a little better today...I regret the things I wrote yesterday, I was emotional...It's hard to judge my reactions, I don't know if I am overreacting or underreacting...I don't know if I am...

Today has been a really bad day, a horrible day. I can never take anything at face value and accept something as it is, I must figure out why..because, you know, I am a woman...therefore, I think. It...

The holidays are coming...it used to be my favorite time of the year, Cassi's too. Last year I just did my best to ignore the holidays, I suppose I will this year as well.Holidays are not holidays...

I have to tell you this.You didn't fail. Not even a little.You are not a horrible mother.You didn't choose this. You didn't want this to happen. You didn't do anything wrong.It just happened. To...

Sigh...okay, I am a GREAT BIG CHICKEN...I left the retreat early. As a matter od fact I left late the first night.As our Meet and Greet was winding down I started feeling the anxiety coursing through...