ginachurchwell1970

Okay, so I have been homebound for several months now. I don't wat to go out. I really, really just don't want to. I have developed a fear of driving, of being out in public alone. I wonder if I am...

Thank you all for the hugs and well wishes. Today, Cassi's 2nd birthday since I lost her, passed surprisingly peaceful and with only a few tears. I think passing the last few weeks "cocooning" in my...

Today, August 17th, 24 years ago was my due date to have my baby. She wasn't quite ready and waited until the 20th to make her appearance. So that will be Thursday, her 2nd birthday not of this...

August 2nd...A Sunday...I have noticed a pattern of the number 2. The happiest day of my life was August 20, 1991, and the worst day of my life was February 2, 2014. Cassi was 22 years old when I...

August...Cassi's birthday was August 20th. She would have been 24 this year instead of forever 22, as we say. I feel so weak, delicate, scared...I want to hide away in my house, in my pajamas, go to...

Another sad and lonely Sunday...it will soon be 18 months...it feels like a lifetime, which I suppose it is. My new life without Cassi. I know it will always be so hard, it makes me wonder why we...

All set for the retreat!!! So happy and looking forward to meeting more sisters and seeing those I have already met. I just can't wait!!! Had a sad day yesterday. Went back to my hometown to see my...

Guilt...I know it's useless...yet I cling. My child chose to end her life. The personal hell I have experienced since then has not taken me to the point of putting a gun in my mouth. So how much...

Thank you all for being here for me. It really does help...but, gosh, I just want her back. That's all, I want her back.

Well, I have made a decision I hope I don't regret. I have been so miserable at work the last few months that I turned in my resignation and am working out a two week notice. I hope and pray I have...

Still very, very bad. What on earth am I supposed to do??? I feel so alone, distraught...I miss my baby so much. I don't know what to do besides turning to SOTHs and hoping foranswers, but there are...

Oh Dear Lord I need help!!! I just don't think I can make it...I can't work anymore...I can't take care of other people when I can't take care of myself! It is so emotionally draining and I am...

Jeez...when will this heartache ever abate??? I mean, I know it never will, but I have had those "gentle" periods of time when it is not quite so bad...but not in a very long time. It hurts and hurts...

I suppose I have been depending on Facebook too much when I am needing to pour my heart out. I am scaring my mother and I should come here instread where people understand. She worries incessantly,...

I remember reading somewhere that seeing a Cardinal was a sign, or a visit, from your loved one. I seem to see a lot of them and when I do, I thank both my daughter and my God. So here is my problem...