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- Halloween was Cassi's favorite holiday, and we always had so much fun with it. This will be the first year since I lost her that I will be celebrating this fun holiday. Cassi was 22, I am 46, but in some ways both of us refused to grow up.I am going...
- I found a post on Facebook from 5 years ago. I reposted it because of the comments under it. It is about October being Breast Cancer Awareness Month and for some reason that had really annoyed me. I have no idea what bothered me so much, but being...
- I really miss the old format of our group. There was so much more activity.Sometimes I just sit. I stare blankly, focusing on nothing. For some reason my eyes open extra wide, no idea why. I'm quiet and still. The pain is so oppressive it sits on me...
- I woke up this morning feeling as delicate as a hot house lily. Sunday, Monday and Tuesday were bad days. I woke up, this morning, taking my mental health temperature to try to predict if the torture would be continuing.It started Sunday...hateful...
- I want to talk about Cassi. People don't want to hear about Cassi. I guess they want to forget that she ever existed. So when I try, they either change the subject, or just wait for me to stop talking so that they can give unsolicited advice about...
- First of all, I love my husband very, very much...but we have always had this issue about money. He thinks I spend too much and I think he is too stingy. He bought a hot tub without even telling me an I was so happy for him, to have something he...
- I am reading "The Shack" by Wm. Paul Young, recommended by a SOTH. I wanted to share a few of the books that have probably helped me survive the past 16 months since I lost my daughter, and hopefully some of you can share some especially meaningful...
- Finding the WordsIn a book-length elegy, the poet Edward Hirsch confronts the loss of his son.BY ALEC WILKINSON CV1_TNY_08_04_14Chast.inddTABLE OF CONTENTS » “It’s so red hot, thinking about his life and what he might regard as...
- Hi sisters...Cassi's birthday is coming up, August 20th. It will be the first. I am not sure what to do, or if I should plan anything because there is a chance I will not get out of bed. However, if I could get some ideas and plan a real event it...
- Hi Moms/Sisters...Can we get a roll call please??
- Today marks 20 weeks when I lost the love of my life, my everything, my self, as I saw myself, as Cassi's mom. There have been ups and downs, more downs, of course. It hasn't been a linear journey...with the early times containing the most pain and...
- Hi sisters...I have been coming to some hard decisions about a lot of things. At this point, I am not going back to work at my previous job. I have been out 8 weeks, my leave time is almost used up and I will submit my resignation at that time. It...
- My only child, my 22 year old daughter committed suicide 29 days ago. It was on a Sunday, February 2nd. Yesterday was March 2nd, also a Sunday, because February only has 28 days. I haven't returned to work and not sure if I will. I don't seem to be...
- I have been watching interviews, documentaries and reading books about Near Death Experiences. There are so many similarities...no matter where in the world, no matter what religion, they are so similar. The stories are so comforting. I WANT to...
- Moms...please read books by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. I am new to this, it has been 26 days since my only child committed suicide. As you all know, and ONLY you all know...it's completely devastating to lose your child. I ordered and began reading many...