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I have had problems with my bladder my entire life. My earliest memories have to do with peeing, isn't that sad??? Anyway, it was one of many things I was terrified Cassi would inherit from me. So I...

Hi Moms...Can we get a Roll Call???

Today my husband and I went to see "Tammy", the new Melissa McCarthy movie. I am a huge fan, Cassi was as well. We got there early (we are always early) and got seats about 3 rows down from the top....

Sisters, I HAVE to share something with you!! "The Afterlife of Billie Fingers", a book, kept coming up on my facebook pages and in other ways...I mean continuously...at the time I was not really...

Today I had a thought I want to share. There are some things we can't control, otherwise there would be no reason for this group. We can control how we react to the things we can't control. I am not...

I am not sure what is going on here with some sisters...you are needed, but no one can ask you to stay if it is impeding your healing. The sisters who have been on the journey the longest have...

Hi Sisters...Sunday was 20 weeks since I lost Cassi and in my mind was the 5 month mark. I suffered a lot more than the previous weekend but after the dreaded Sunday was over I thought I would be...

I have not really left my home in over a week...honestly, I can't remember the last time I washed my hair. I have been sleeping as much as possible to escape the pain...So, today I am planing on...

So 20 weeks ago, around this time, I was probably at my daughter's apartment. I had not been allowed to see her at the hospital morgue, hate that word. I still needed proof, somehow, I believed it...

Sorry sisters...seems like all of my entries have been terribly sad lately...it's just that I feel so overcome and am trying so hard to find some relief. Tomorrow will be 20 weeks. I am 43 years old....

Time is so surreal isn't it??? Looking at photos today on Facebook...friends children and grandchildren playing softball for the city league in Geneva...where Cassi played until 2005...just 9 years...

I had a wonderful visit today, my first face to face meeting with a SOTH today...she was bright, positive, full of life...everything I aspire to be but can't imagine. She is so strong.It should have...

I wasted so much time...time flies so fast but you never understand that until it's too late...I can't comprehend the stupid things that I let occupy my time and attention when I had the world right...

Does anyone know anything about sleeping excessively?? Earlier, I didn't sleep well, even with medications. I would wake up at 4 or 5 am and just be up. I have slept the past 2 days almost non-stop....

I miss her so much...I can read as many books as I can find, join as many support groups possible, meditate, dream, hear psychic readings...all these help ease the pain temporarily, but the truth is...