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What a difference a day makes...was feeling so strong yesterday...no so today. It's been 9 weeks, today... I know, I know, time...it takes time...yet it seems like it's been a lifetime already. Thank...

I am feeling okay today...tentatively okay...I am scared to trust it. I have been down this road before...The lows will come, I just wish I could enjoy the highs more instead of being afraid of the...

I recently read a book "How to Survive Your Grief When Someone You Love Has Died" by Susan L. Fuller. I found the book very helpful, it's very specific with everything you can expect to feel. I went...

Cassi Was Always Introducing Me To New Television Series That I Would Have Never, Ever Watched On My Own...Shipping Wars?? Dog The Bounty Hunter??? One Look At Dog And Beth Told Me All I Needed To...

Today was, uhmmm Thursday, right??? Just an ordinary day, the new ordinary. I woke early, made my bed, used the bathroom, brushed my teeth, let the furbabies out to potty...took my medication...cried...

I don't go out much. It's textbook depression...maybe even a major depressive episode...who knows??? The fact is I don't want to get dressed, I don't want to shower, I don't want to shampoo my hair,...

Evening FallingA Soft Lamenting...Nights were difficult for Cassi. Not that days were easy, but nights were horrific. Her two roommates, Kristi and Zach, were a couple and spent most evenings in...

I have made writing a priority since "it" happened. If it is helping, I can't even imagine what I would be going through if I had not been writing. So it's supposed to help??? Well okay, it makes...

I'm so tired of being sad, so tired of being abnormal, so tired of waiting for real life to start. I always assumed if anything happened to my child I would kill myself...I voiced this to her many...

Sisters,I am feeling so odd today...I have come to trust expressing my feelings here...I love being told I am "normal"...I just know somwone will know what I am feeling and why or maybe how to calm...

I am not sure why, but I feel compelled to tell this story. I think I have already shared it, but for some reason it is heavy on my heart right now.The day "it" happened...my husband and I were...

Hello my sisters,First of all I want to say how much you mean to me. I am so grateful for your support.I saw my doctor and he is trying me on Abilify, which is supposed to enhance the effect of...

It seems so stupid to say this...because it's always the same, but here goes. I have had a bad few days (like I said, what else is new). I called my psychiatrist this morning and he is going to see...

Part of the process...I know... days things almost seem normal, days of hysterical pain, days like today, just sadness...sadness...How did I end up here??? How did I let this happen??? My baby is...

Sometimes I wonder is I need to be in a psychiatric hospital. Somewhere skilled professionals will treat me, ease my pain...then I remember, it's only been six weeks. Six weeks ago my baby girl took...