ginachurchwell1970

It has been a while since I have written but I am in a very bad place.I would say it's been about 2 months now on a downward spiral and I have nearly hit bottom. The only reason I say I have not hit...

I didn't go to work today. As I was leaving my dogs started howling, crying, whimpering and I was thrust back in time to when I would have to leave Cassi at daycare to go to work. I called in...

We are all doing the best we can aren't we??? When someone asks, they don't want to hear the story, they want to hear we are fine...I can say that I am doing the best I can without choking on my own...

Here I am again, reaching out, hoping for a branch to hold on to...I guess it keeps me humble, there are times I feel so strong, like I have it figured out, I will be okay...then I fall down. I am...

Sisters, I need some advice.See, I was stuck in a miserable job when I lost Cassi. Her gift to me was that I simply could not return. I found the job that during the honeymoon phase seemed to be my...

Gosh, it still hurts sometimes. Going through this nightmare we are cracked open into a million little pieces and have to open our hearts, minds, souls, question everything and learn as much as...

I have learned so much in the past thirteen months, twelve days. I have come a long way, such a long way. I have long periods of time when I feel at peace. I remember when the peaceful times were...

Yesterday, Monday, I decided to start the day with 2 intentions. First of all, and most important, I was going to choose to be positive and happy throughout the day. I would look for the light in...

Hi Sisters,I have been feeling so bad lately. I know it's to be expected and it's something we all have to deal with...but gosh, it is so bad lately.I didn't just lose my baby, I lost the life I had....

I remember reading somewhere that the sight of a cardinal was a sign that the soul of a loved one was visiting you. I don't know if it's true or not, but I believe almost anything that tells me my...

Well, sisters, I made it. One year ago today I began this horrible, sad journey when I lost my child.When I first joined this group, the thought of lasting a year was impossible to me, sort of how...

2014 was the worst year of my life, of course, the year I lost my child. I was happy to see it end, but it wasn't the kind of closure where you can just wipe your brow, say "Whew, I made it" and move...

I knew it would happen...losing friends. After the first few ekks had passed it started. A cousin who was like a sister, now doesn't seem to know me. So many others, some I expected, some I didn't....

Lately I have been feeling like I am not going to do this, I am not going to continue on this way. Suffering endlessly, even being told honestly by other mothers that the sorrow never ends.I unpacked...

February 2nd is approaching...whether I want it to or not, it is coming and I will once again see that hateful day that stole my heart away from me. I know the days before a significant date are...