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SHE CAME TO ME!!! I knew she was visiting...I danced around with her, we could fly...I was so happy I didn't cry at all!! She misses us too...Oh she was so beautiful...I told her that when my time...

Cassi's friends are moving on...it hurts so much to see it...how can they??? We promised to stay in touch, but I don't really hear from them. I suppose I am a reminder of what they lost and truly I...

Hi sisters...guess I have been very needy lately...I just keep coming here to pour out my heart, where I am safe, where I am understood...then before you know it my heart is full again and I am back....

So today I had a memory that brought me to my knees...I want to share it here...but sisters, please, please don't tell mi it'[s not my fault, I couldn't have known, I meant well...or anything like...

My Sisters, you are all giving me such comfort...truly there is nothing else you can do...I am taking my medication, journaling when I feel it needs to be done...and yet...my life feels so empty, I...

Why does everyone expect so much out of me??? These fools whispering in my ear, I have to try, I have to get out there, I have to pull myself up... I don't want to try, get out there, or pull myself...

Oh Dear God...I just don't know what to do...it's hitting me hard today...it's just do damned unfair!!! DAMNIT!!!!! I never asked for much in life and never got much...but I had it ALL when I had...

I have been away from DS too long...I am in such a dark place...almost "that" place. I am hormonal, which isn't helping...but I am so very depressed...my life is so dark and empty without my child in...

I know I am not supposed to compare grief, loss...but since I lost my child, and survived...I seem to have no patience or compassion for anyone other than other parents going through the same thing....

My Sisters...I have to bring you up to date!!! The beginning of the week I was terribly down, in a dark, depressed place...you know that place very well, don't you??? Then my sister-in-law sent me a...

So sad...this is all real. How is it possible that I have to go through this over and over again...realizing that she is really gone. I know she is gone...so why on earth do I feel shocked? I keep...

Hi Sisters,I did not write about this last weekend, but my husband and I went to Pensacola yesterday and we were finally allowed to pick up her things...the "evidence" they have kept from us almost 4...

I finally took the plunge and called a medium today. I was just feeling desperate...overwhelmed with the sadness and even thinking I might not want to go on. I have been scared of reaching out to...

Woke up to a rainy day...tried to go back to sleep but Cassi wouldn't let me. Just memories, visions constantly running through my mind. Feeling sad...I have been on such an upward swing, I guess...

Feeling such gratitude today...first of all, yesterday went by much easier than I expected. Had lunch with my mother...visited Cassi. Then today a friend of mine sent me a book. If you are on...