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I have my room booked for the Retreat. I couldn't make reservations on-line because it is so far away so I called and they let me do it that way. I have to wait a little for my plane tickets, they...

Does anyone have any information about the Lake Tahoe Retreat??? I mean any more than is listed. I definitely want to go. Cassi would have been 23 on August 20th. It will be her first birthday, not...

Dear Sisters,Thank you so much for your constant support. When I don't feel strong enough to hold my head up, you, my sisters, give me your strength to carry on. My husband is home today, so I...

Sisters please pray for me...I am struggling terribly...I wrote a blog entry today, telling a story about my baby, when she was in kindergarten. It has awoken the grief like it's brand new, thinking...

Sisters...I need the advice of those further along in the journey...It has been almost six weeks since Cassi committed suicide. I know it isn't that long, but I am starting to feel like people are...

I am so, so very confused. I am hearing stories from many people about dreams...dreams about Cassi. Hearing the same things, over and over...including Cassi communicating that she didn't mean to do...

Sunday Night I met with some of Cassi's work friends, her roommates, my sister, lori, and my best friend Ashley. we had dinner at olive garden. I had planned it as an event to remember cassi and...

WHEN AM I GOING TO HIT BOTTOM???? I will think I have found the bottom, that I've hit it and can only go up, but it's just an illusion...waves of pain wash over me and the bottom drops lower...I...

I have been putting out messages for everyone to tell me of any dreams, or unusual occurrences and they have been flooding in. I got a really, really unusual one today.I was sent a message, on...

Feeling sad today, I reached out to a dear friend. He is Catholic, not that it matters, just that there aren't many where I live. He told me that he had seen Cassi. That she was at the foot of his...

I am sad today...I know this is part of the whole process...was on an upswing, today I just sad. I see so much that reminds me of Cassi...scrolling through the channels, The Rugrats Movie is playing....

I seem to be on an upswing. I understand this is part of the process and that I have so far to go. I know I have many, many bad days ahead of me, much pain to process. Saying that, I feel better. I...

I have been living a nightmare for the last 30 days...well actually much longer considering the 5 years I watched cassi suffer from depression, anxiety..whatever demons she was fighting. Even further...

Sad, lonely, depressed...I know that the way I am feeling is only a touch of what my baby was feeling when she ended her life. She had suffered so much and given up hope...and something pushed her...

Today started out better...but something happened. I went downhill so fast, so bad, had to call my husband home from work. I can't do that every time I have a breakdown, but I just could not be...