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I guess things are alright. I struggled to find the worthiness of myself to do something today. I think how others have to decide what to do as well. I don't know why it is such a struggle for me to...

I woke up in the middle of the night with a hard to deal with thought.I got up, washed and dressed and went to work.I felt so caught up in the melee that is working amongst others.I usually have a...

I have found myself today doing something that I have done oh so many times in the past.I have done chores and then once finished, I have sat down on the couch in front of the tvas a way to calm...

I woke up today, did my errands and tasks around the apartment.Then I had lunch and also made a list of things I plan to do.I took a nap - but then with just the empty space around meI realize I...

I was at my parents' today and I was realizing that I know I have a needto feel special or good about myself in my life. They can't always provide that - as they are living theirlives and I need to...

I am recognizing that I can be hyper vigilant - worried very much about 'how I am being' and 'how I want my behavior to be' - I am getting past it though - My psychiatrist on Friday offered to me the...

I am having a struggling time to do something with my day. I am falling into old patterns but trying to suss that out. Trying to learnfrom things so that I don't make the same mistakes over and...

I used to paint and draw a lot. I never seemed to master any style well enough to be satisfied.I tried different things and always looked for a quality I could never sense. I ultimately found...

I went to work this morning, worked well - and then came home and then went to get my haircut.I wasn't frightened to talk to the haircutter today - I was actually relaxed when he was working on...

my brother went to stay somewhere else. he will be back I presume at some point and he is verywelcome! but his absence now has me reckoning the 'being alone and back to my schedule' so to speakbut in...

I came home from work and had a great sense of clarity about my life. I feltlike my chest was opening to spirituality and joy of life. For somereason I obsess a little bit and look for answers or...

I think what a lot of this writing has to do is for a way for me to battle the emptiness in my life.I seem to perfect ideas, look for a wisdom and it feels like being productive. I mean, it may have...

I am feeling really strange today. Like I am kind of having a hangover but I haven'thad a drink. I am just managing my day - but wonder about my future potential.My parents really encourage me to...

I was at my parents' house yesterday and I really started to appreciate how busyand focused they are on their lives. Instead of just feeling as an awkward outsideI started to think that I should...