malibumark

it seems that I can come to a place of peace and then an undermining thoughtwill kick in, the struggle and fight and anguish within me. It is very hard to live with this.I have been learning to look...

I don't know why - perhaps a chemical imbalance - I don't have that answer butwhat I am going to write about is that I have come to know that my mind manufactures upset.Whether it's the isolation...

This is only a little bemoaning that I am going to put down here and then put away and get on with the day.Yes my life is limited - I am limited but the sun is coming out and I can aim to work hard...

no complaints here!

I am here in my apartment. I have run out of things to do, so I am just kind of spilling the tea about my day.I don't know if it's important to give all the details but I kind of groove on that too...

I came home from work, and the transition to living life outside of workhad me reaching for god or some kind of idea that would help me find my footing.I realized that though and tried to just relax...

I live on my own and at times it's pretty hard. I feel like I ought to be ableto live on my own - and it's my choice to do it - but I guess rather than feel upsetor confused as to why I can't do it...

I have realized that in part I need to do what is right for me - and maybe notwhat the iconographic thing might dictate. I believe in ideals and standards butalso I have gone down a slippery slope in...

having this illness often leaves me feeling like I am at a deficitand my life's direction is up to others to decide and to make.My Dad though, very subtley keeps telling me my life is in my...

I guess if I ask me what I should do about this I might as well take a walk or do something physical.I came home today after work and parked myself on the couch. I thought about being social -...

I am learning something new today. I think. I hope.I hope it might help someone, it might just be helping me (if but for the moment.)I find that sometimes I have like a mental focus or firmament to...

it's like in the process of managing my illness, it's like i don't want anything now.My Pop said to me, "Why don't you take a course? Enrich your life" It's so strangeit's been resonating with me in...

though one voice in your head may be saying no, you can't...... push that aside and go forth withhowever big or small steps you need to take or make to push forward. The depressive feelingsare not in...

When I am on my own, I have been taking things in differently and I have developed anxietyand a kind of grinding away at myself. My illness and my management of it has really replacedall personal...

I started the day feeling lousy and regretting the day and woeful at the day/hours ahead of me.Being alone and filling the void, feeling anxiety and stress and awe struck - it's all just normal I...