malibumark

I am starting to be ok with seeing the process of my life as being the main focus to keep.I also have started to think about the idea of having someone in my life... I am facing the solitudeand I...

I am home from work. I made lunch and ate it. Got some paperwork preparedthat I am going to 'attack' this Monday and get it done. I have been onlineand I texted a couple of people. I am alone. I...

thinking about the essentials today. thoughts, feelings and actions...and my nature as a human being...I wonder how we inter-relate in a socially responsible wayand yet have a human nature full of...

this morning I wrote a text to my friend the Abbess Aemiliane of a monastery that is on the other side of the country.I have to say that my moods and the disruption of my inner life because of...

right now I am remembering the prayer style of the buddhist prayer group I went to whenI lived in Malibu. I really liked it and I think it is something I can take a lesson from.I seem to go from...

I am trying to patch up the negativite sense of things in my life that I feel this morning. I feel gratefulthat you guys are all out there, having supported me in the past, which is a good...

The sun is just starting to go down. The light is slanting shadows and the apartment hasgone darker. I know what I have to look forward to tonight and I am grateful for it.Ate too much today and...

things are alright. I went to work today and now it's the start of my weekend.I was really exhausted at work and I was yesterday as well. Weird.I home now and I am enjoying an old movie on TCM. I...

I wrote this passage earlier:--------------where is this writing going? What do I want to achieve? Is it a kind of perfecting?Should I start to wish for survival and future pragmatic goals? Isn't...

I think taking care of my brother's dog may have something to do with it. But I feel likewhen I am home alone I need something or someone to make me feel important.When I am home alone and I do not...

I wrote this a moment ago, the thoughts here are helping me move forward:I think there is a side to me that would have made a good boyscoutI have been thinking about how I have been bereft of the...

Having Nina here, and being responsible for her has made me see how good it is to care about someone besides myself.It's really tiring sometimes, like following after a two year old, I would imagine...

woke up in the grossest mood. It's funny now that I think about it.. I am so glad I could get by with being non-verbal with Nina. Otherwise I think I might have snapped at someone. Trying to keep...

I am so lonely, at least I am realizing that. I am realizing that you can't like everything about somebodyand for some reason with that reality (shown on me too towards myself) - the veil of self...