what we need

I was at my parents' today and I was realizing that I know I have a need

to feel special or good about myself in my life. They can't always provide that - as they are living their

lives and I need to build a life of my own - and take from it - that specialness that I desire about my life

and relationships. And then I noticed that in relating with them - they are trying really hard to make me feel special

and that in a way is the way they are making themselves feel special. It was really a major moment to take that from

the experience with them today. And now I am coming home from their house - and I am wondering what it takes for me

to feel special in my life. When on my own. It can be hard to be solo - but it's teaching me to open to life.