malibumark

I am learning something new today. I think. I hope.I hope it might help someone, it might just be helping me (if but for the moment.)I find that sometimes I have like a mental focus or firmament to...

it's like in the process of managing my illness, it's like i don't want anything now.My Pop said to me, "Why don't you take a course? Enrich your life" It's so strangeit's been resonating with me in...

though one voice in your head may be saying no, you can't...... push that aside and go forth withhowever big or small steps you need to take or make to push forward. The depressive feelingsare not in...

When I am on my own, I have been taking things in differently and I have developed anxietyand a kind of grinding away at myself. My illness and my management of it has really replacedall personal...

I started the day feeling lousy and regretting the day and woeful at the day/hours ahead of me.Being alone and filling the void, feeling anxiety and stress and awe struck - it's all just normal I...

I came home early from my parents' house today. I have not been feeling mentally welland so I excused myself early - and they were very kind about it.I came home to be by myself. Maybe not the best...

my moods have been running rampant lately and I have responsibilities which are exacerbating my illness and complexity.I need to remain positive about the future and about just keep on keeping on,...

I was thinking while working today "Why do I always feel like I am wrong?" -it's not so. It's not the truth - but it got me thinking about the nature of relationships (as something to focus on)and...

I was getting on with my day - and then my mind started pickingaway at me.  I mean, I was enjoying the day - but couldn'tseem to keep up with all the influences in my life. I don't know if that...

it's weird I was feeling resolved to change some things - to try and develop projects with the day - and then somethinghappened. I watched a little bit of TV and my center changed - I lost my focus...

the past few times i have been to my psychiatrist he has patiently heard meout about my misery at times, with what I have been dealing with. He's very kind and generous. He has also wisely suggested...

I saw a movie yesterday. "Mission Impossible" - it was really fun!

I need to write. I am far too anxious and clueless about what direction to turn myself towardsand so I will write down thoughts and ideas here.I sent the following text to my Dad last night:I find...

I know I journal a lot about me trying to make sense of my lifeand I feel kind of drawn to write more today. A couple things come to mind though. Journalling helps me feel expressed about what I am...

Why does my mind 'project' pain and suffering the world, but if I keep persistentto keep objective I see another truth is clearly evident.I went to work this morning - and my mind was all...