malibumark

la vie e belle. Life is beautiful. Things are pretty good. I feel unleashed from darkness. I think if I had my druthersI'd be walking around the city in search of museums and good reading like at...

I went to work today and was really struggling to find some self value. I was working diligently and looked to takepride in that but I felt distant from the others because 'in person' I sense my...

my sister and her husband have been in the process of divorcing. My sister knew of my special connection with her soon to be ex husband and urged me to keep in touch with him. Very big hearted of...

Work forces me up in the morning and out of the house. It forces me to focus and complete work and socially interact with others.I like the health it brings. When I come home from work, I slowly go...

a nice walk...hot day.

....or at least relish it. I went to work today, and my mind was buzzing about some ideas.Me pushing forward, kept me going and also then thinking about a new idea that I came across yesterdaywas...

I think I need to start becoming passionate about following my interests.By passionate, I mean doing stuff alone and be willing to do whatever it isthat I really want to do. I can still responsible...

Mind changes, evolutions, time passes and flows. I mutate and changeand grow, whirl around. Things are good. 

yet again I find myself struggling, my energies need paying attention to. It's like some communication between body and mindin me isn't second nature and I have to adjust my mind and body to a kind...

the people in my life remind me who I am.I spend a lot of time alone and my search for answers while having this conditionmakes me splinter and go down abstract roads...Why do I find myself cornered...

I think I will always have noble aspirations - it is how I deal with these aspirations and along side the forces within which will be pudding proof that I can effectuate the drives within me.There...

it seems like I am always struggling with some thought, idea or feeling...like an embattlement that keeps me company or occupied or somehow I don't know how to talk about it.If I could put the kind...

I have been noticing lately how I try and live 'in the right' and also, as every one does, have to cope with the ubiqitous need for finding 'order out of chaos' every day. I feel prepared for that...

it sucks that I can't always keep on top of my emotions and feelings - it makes me feel at a lossand as I search for other work to do with my life I seem to be so way layed (sp?) and detouredtowards...

for some reason some days I experience spiritual upheaval...call it a chaotic mindor high spirits or both..but I think what I have learned...in the spirit of being self responsible...as self...