malibumark

lately. lately I have been realizing that bad feelings don't have to be tragic. Uncomfortable, sad, painful , scary, feelings. We all have them - we all feel things and deal with them. It's what we...

quiet pillow talkit is the end of the dayI am laying my head down on my pillowand I want to talk about my feelingsI want to share with someoneI want to tell them what I am thinkingI want to feel...

I think when I have set goals for myself in the past, I have thought of an ideal,like I should live up to an ideal and once I got there it would be perfect.I have a mental illness, and even though I...

I have noticed that the kind of energy that makes me nervous when I am with others (but grateful to be with others)also works on me when I am alone. It's that energy that goes into seeking...

When I am at work, I work hard, and then I come home and for the most part and in the recent past I have tried to keep upstandards to do things in order around here, a routine, keep the place neat...

Having a mental disability sure makes me want to have something to hold onto at times.I guess just taking care of what you need to take care of and then sharing the time and spacewith friends and...

the world that I inhabit...I went to a luncheon today and the people there were family but we were all really differentI realized we all had things about our lives that we likedthat we thought was...

my depression drills and drills away at me as I sit here aloneor am out during the day I think what it's about (managing that is) is just managing and keep my headfrom going underwater.The down...

I have been off this week from work for a vacation week.I have struggled intermittently with depression that I think is probablykept at bay when I work owing to the fact that my work is very...

when spending time on my own I can become a bit of a social ombudsman...collecting info - and yet at times thinking critically about things.I think I might also take these abilities and tendencies...

I just went to the Starbucks and there is a guy there who always gets so wiredwhen I come there. Today I just realized, I have my own problems and I don't needto make his problems mine. I just was as...

this morning I woke up and thought of something negative about my past about myself.I was struggling with it for a while, and yet I then took a step backward to look at it.I realized I was obsessing...

this morning i woke up in bed and felt so depressed like I couldn't move - butthen I turned on the tv and slowly gained an interest in the morning show.I dragged myself out of bed and shaved and...

hehe - sorry I don't mean to complain, it's a hot dayand heat tends to magnify my bad mood. It's my job notgive into it -and to keep at what I planned to do.This may seem out of left field but I woke...

I am starting to see how understanding the relationships of the daythough I might not always be able to be 'on top of' providing to keep myselfengaged as I'd like to be... I am seeing the...