malibumark

I am having a difficult morning, but I am so grateful for this place to come to.I feel like I have probably become too much about scutinizing and writing about my internal life - and I need to keep...

I went to work today. I felt strengthened by what I wrote in my last journal. I feel like I have a boundary issue - and I will again and again seek out ways to placate that desire in me to achieve...

 i have kind of come to a place where i recognize I can't 'think my way' out of my disorder..again and again I come back to a moment of health, clarity and calm - to then some undermining thoughts,...

lately i have been emerging in a sense to not expect 'whatever i like' from myself - but to guide myselfwith my nature in mind. I'd like to aspire to great things, but I don't know if I can reach my...

i was lying in bed tonight trying to go to sleep. i felt stretched to my limits but then suddenly saw aspects of my lifeto be grateful for and acknowledgement of things that were challenging.as i...

when I am alone i have to keep my mind framed in thoughts that take care of and help me manage my emotions..feeling can feel quite dangerous - though it's just heightened feelings.i am watching tv...

things are good today. I mean my mood has wondered all around but I seemed to be able to reframe things, understand them as they happened - and kept refocusing my sights on positive things. I am...

I was at work one day this past week and though at times I feel badly, embattled and splintered sometimes, I know to push forward and adjust to keep the focus on the work and get the job done. This...

my feelings can make me feel stuck in their intensity - and I realize now - like for anything else that I have to deal with externallyI have to adjust for my feelings as well, though it's an...

I think I write about this stuff because I feel so utterly confused by what goes on upstairs.The day moved on from my last journal entry - I took a ride down to the market to buy some drinksand...

everyday I'll morph and learn new things about myself. I don't really enjoy the mood swingsand changing inside so much but I think it's like any work we have.. we just shift our perspective to deal...

I tend to think in real linear terms. It's kind of like I am chomping at the bit - and when I am not kept busy enough - this nature - this instinct to feed comes to me - and starts to grind away at...

it's tempting to write about my experience but I know forcing forward is probably better than finding solace inwriting it all down. So maybe I will do both.I experience a lot of discomfort in my life...

today at work I had to deal with my boss who I know doesn't like me so much. I try really hard to be positive, to do the right thing. To do my job quickly and to be as responsible as I can. She just...

I just wondered if you guys have any reflections on this. Yesterday I found myself getting totally anxious about having a lot to take care of. I have a very 'small' manageable life whereas I once had...