malibumark

I went to work today and just preceding entering the store - a rogue thought undermined meand I felt just low and measley.I just focused on work and figured that was the best thing to do. It was for...

I don't know what possesses me to do this but the bright side is that I seem to function at work - though at times I am undermined by my internal process so that I think I might sound abrupt or...

I went to work today and then came home.At work I worked at working as competently as I could.I remembered an email I wrote yesterday and felt such little controlover my life and it's direction - and...

I feel really stuck right now. Not sure what to do with my day or self. But I am starting to think backto a couple of times I have written about and thought about this state of unknowing within me...

i think sometimes i want to live in meaning.when I am at work I have to fight of the voice bothering me - alld that stuff, it's well focused by the activity - once the work day ends, my mind looks...

I had a really good meeting today with my new "Resident" Dr, at the UCLA Psych Clinic.The supervising Dr. who I like as well suggested I could really benefit from psychotherapy.Anyways, that's beyond...

my Dad just offered this phrase to me. I had called him because I was anxious about the future.I just thought to share.peace and good night!

went for a walk, around the hood. kind of unwound a bit after the last journal...i kind of have to ask myself..what will it take for me to feel ok or motivated to do something with the day.I guess...

lately I have been starting to realize how important relationships are.I have been seeing things in terms of my relationships at work and also outside of work.I don't always have to be right, but to...

i started to wind down, in the pattern that i have on evenings before a work day. I watch the international news programs : France24, then NHK Newsline, then DW news and then BBC World News...

Just took a walk to the beach. It's beautiful this morning, feeling a lot of gratitude and looking forward to things.Just some notes....I was sitting in the living room and feeling an 'edge' about...

it's another day. my chores are done, and now my head is in my hands.i don't always muster what it takes to keep myself thoroughly occupied and my mindwill take advantage of that lacking every time...

there are times when i feel like I just don't know anything...I have approached writing my thoughts today, and reaching out to others but have talked myself out of it as it just didn't seem the right...

I have been feeling moments of real frailty the past few weeks.Like just moments I will catch myself in the mirror and see really fragile movements andlook about myself. So it goes.. but I have also...

I was in touch with some truths about my life yesterday... I learned from my Stepmother and Father just by being with them.I came home from their house and tried to reorient myself to my life.. It...