malibumark

I was with my parents today. I kept on losing myself to the moment. I just didn't seem to have much substance to my life. I felt invisible but also like I was just vacuous. I couldn't feel anything...

I don't get it, it seems I have a nice moment after a series of anxiety upset and then two seconds latersomeone comes by some how and shits on me metaphorically. I went to work this morning and that...

I am thinking about faith right now. It keeps me company on my journey alone.Part of me wants to share my path with someone - and yet I know my faith keeps me assured along my solo walk. Maybe I...

do you still keep knocking?I need to remember that. I feel like I have been after an idea rather than looking at what is actually going on and thatit might not be good for me. OR giving me what I so...

“Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death.” ― Anais Nin 

I remember a therapist talking to me about this. Sometimes I can see it clearly and others I cannot.I want to make sense of my day. I worked hard and came home and literally had to sit down a...

I don't know why this is ocurring to me now. Perhaps because I am reflecting on my own challenges and trying to ressurect a kind of path for myself. But there what I am seeing is that there are so...

I feel great sadness tonight, and breathless but I wonder if I test myself to tryand see the bright side of things, test myself to try and challenge those feelings tobe bright and happy, maybe then I...

I don't know why I feel so lost or at a loss for things to do with myself...like because I am not strong and because I am flawed there's not much out there for me to do. I am remembering something my...

I have posted this in another place but just felt like sharing it, again. I took this pic as the sunrise hit the orchid in my kitchen.Things are ok here. Feel like embracing friends, family and life.

I was at a loss today, though I was working and that made me feel great - but something arfie encouraged me to see that I own what I do with myself in life. I was thinking about that and in the face...

I have been writing emails to my Dr. about insights I have - It seems like I have insights to things - but I think it's time to focus on steering my ship.I need to break it down - and make a plan or...

perhaps it's about speaking my truth or 'your truth' that is coming to me.my truth may not be the truth of others but it still has a place amongst the greath pantheonof humanity - and so perhaps take...

"take your broken heart and turn it into art" - I heard that once said by Meryl Streep quoting Carrie Fisher at the time of Carrie's passing.Here's to making art from the challenges life serves up...

I am learning that though certain relationships challenge me - and I can feel such a mixture of frustration and dark feelings but not 100% bad feelings - I can just move on and do the work I have -...