malibumark

It's the start to another day...So grateful ...a day to start justdoing what I need to do...Woke up this morning early (though I have the day off from work) and thenI played with Blue and watched...

I was feeling so down trodden - and then by some grace born from the struggleI was able to say to myself "it will pass." OMG it was so great! I went on my zoomcall and was able to relate to everyone...

woke up very early - then went back to bed - woke up again at 530amand decided to go get a coffee at Starbucks. I didn't really want it so muchbut it's a routine that I feel is so important to keep...

got up, went to Starbucks, came home, played with Blue and cleaned up some things around here.Then went for a walk. It was a push for me to get out the door - but I just believed I should make myday...

I talked to my therapist yesterday and I told her about how I was finding a way tolook past the intimidation factors of a failure or two.So much of my time, or just very often,I might conceive of a...

I woke up this morning very very early - I went to sleep very very early - the sun was going down yesterdayand I just had no reason - no interest - in watching tv or doing anything else. I suppose I...

I went to sleep last night, thinking about coping to the feelings that I have versusthe way I should be..I don't know if that makes sense - but I can't always be in touchwith my feelings - but I also...

I saw my therapist yesterday online as is usual.I was really hyper and excited and I kind of just went with it - didn't worry too muchabout keeping orderly...I felt good, sort of, if a little...

it's the weekend now for me.I find myself super disciplined while at work - trying to be responsible - and on target with what I need to do. I've worked hard to be self responsible and to do an...

I had been struggling this morning while working at the market  - contemplating orhoping for some wisdom to shed it's light on my mental darkness.I kept going and yet I told myself, I had to tell...

I realize that I can really 'self castigate' when I am alone to fill a 'form' in order to know where I standin the world. It's something I really am learning to stop. I've been blind to it.Now I want...

had a miserable day at work - which was preceded earlier last night by a weird conversation on the phone..I know my mood shifts and changes..... and I have to create for myself a mechanism for whatI...

I got 'onto' my chores that I wrote about in my last journal.I then sat down on the couch - turned on the news - and thensat there, feet up, with my cat snoozing in my lap.At another time in my life...

not every feeling is nice, in fact at times there's really agressive feelingsand forceful feelings on my end - I know that sometimes accepting this mixture -and keeping outwardly moving forward in...

I've been having a growthful weekend. Feeling like I am aware of new things and also not letting certain feelings RULE my decision makingand personal activity.I went to my parents' house today and...