malibumark

feeling like I have gotten too dependent on my therapist. I was feeling likeI wanted to call her earlier - as if she could save me. I have to find my own answersin life. She helps and has helped me...

For some reason sometimes I do things that are about denying my experience or numbing out to my experience you know like food or going to sleep earliy or drinking or different things like that. I...

My mind may be a big macaroni scrambled egg salad - there may be a sadness about theday for some reason - but I'll just choose not to let that be my 'decider' - I'll choosehappy and though my anxiety...

I know something is not right within me. I have to believe in the choice I have to deal with it. My moods are on an intense edge of swinging hi and low, from a sense of well being and control, to...

I am here alone, in the living room. Blue absconded under the bed. As we get to knoweach other - he seems less and less like he wants to be a pet. He likes to be servicedbut when I don't pay...

feeling pretty lost this morning. got to take care of the cat..he is meowing - that means either "I am bored" and also that "I need attention" or "I need food."I don't know why I slipped last night...

Oh dear. I find myself aware of that engine within - leaning towards the gnashing and gnarling -I have it 'in check' - but I do definitely have the drive still. Been doing laundry, been eating...

in this social distancing, I am assuming the quiet and lack of mobility is probably a lotlike how things would have been for generations past. The lack and limit to instant cultureis helping me see...

today i've been coping with the alone time, the social distancing like we all are.i happen to be alone with my cat, who I am still getting to know..but he's a sweetheartand indeed he is like my...

I was really inspired by Andrew Cuomo today. To me he is one of the great voices of reason during this time. Today he was talking about how we are all just "Reacting" to the virus menaceand not...

I just got out of the shower. Dressed and put some things away from last night.I woke up much earlier...Blue wanted attention..I tried to pet him, opened the windowso he could hear the birds and...

As I wrote about, I am quarantining for two weeks and I have a month or so that I'm off from work. I found myself in the awestruck place of not knowing what to do with myself....sound refreshingly...