malibumark

maybe not a new phrase, but it holds new meaning for me.walking back from the dry cleaners this morning, i felt underminedby some of my scrambled energy...weak, upset...but I realized that I still...

hi all, good morning. it's a sunshiney day, birds are singing, got up early with my cat alarm clock because he washungry :). He stood on my chest until I got my ass in gear to "Serve and obey!"...

it's really interesting. I just got out of the shower and dressed for the day. As I was nearly readyI saw Blue sitting on the windowsill. I know he gets startled easily - but I approached him and...

had a good therapy session today...I feel like she is teaching me a lotand am more able to be "OK with everything." In the spirit of that - whenthings come up that are upsetting, I am more inclined...

I don't know why I reacted this way...but I had some nice moments today to start... I texted with my sister, my father and stepmom..and then I had an online therapy session.. and it was nice to have...

I don't know why it is but for some reason, transitioning from one social group to being on my own islike a whirlpool of deepening worry for me. It sucks me in, and it drills me down like a corkscrew...

my boss at the market texted me and said I have an extra day off (tomorrow) because of the paid holidaytoday and she knows that I can earn only so much a week. She is SO nice to me and I really want...

I had some ups and downs yesterday and this morning. Felt a darkness withinbut the gumption to keep on keeping on. I am starting to cop to the regularity of stuffand in that regularity - rather than...

Name 3 things you did today that you feel proud about.

I've been thinking about Lazarus lately.I wonder if he was catatonically depressed and so.."DEAD" to those around him.I wonder if Jesus gave him a wonderful hug and revived him and so brought...

I'm not bitter - just a bit messed up. I have some challenges today - trying real hard to overcome them and be productive - and become positive about the day and what I do with it.No need to...

do any of you guys experience this? for some reason, like right now,i had an inspiring time of going out to a park I had never been to before.I had done all my chores and then took the time to go to...

hi all, got up this morning slowly, so nice on a sunday morning. turned on CBS' Sunday morningand then merged into Face the Nation..Blue as usual wants his 'first thing in the morning' cuddles...he...

I am thinking about the monastery again. Kind of on an emotional 'high tide' right now.I am drawn to it - because there is a lot of regularity and predictability. A life living in communitybut also...

I came home from work. Wrote the previous jounal and then went to buy the bigger cat carrier. I feel this utter longing inside - -  like I feel like eating cookies and drinkingbeer or guiness or...