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I came home from work. Wrote the previous jounal and then went to buy the bigger cat carrier. I feel this utter longing inside - -  like I feel like eating cookies and drinkingbeer or guiness or...

I went to bed last night thinking about how I would really like to go back to the monastery and be in community livinga life there...I also recognized that I need to keep near my family - because of...

for some reason, Blue is limping. I've noticed hejumps off things and seems to land very forcefullfy.He finally injured himself.

It's probably because I go back to work at the market, maybe the anxiety is building up in a backhanded depression.Just seems like a bunch of things impacted me yesterday and today - and now I am...

so if you can find something productive to do today that will make you proud of yourself at the end of the day--please try to make sure you spend some time on that-

I don't know if the title explains it - maybe you, after you read this, will have a better way to summarize this...but I am realizing that the intensity of the way I feel at times can be simply...

woke up this morning and it was a depressing start to the day.....but then I got showered, dressedand wrote a note to someone - and then got myself out the door to get a coffee.My mind after focusing...

my therapist helped me realize that part of self care is what I have been doing.She asked me when I told her about an experience she said"What is your 'go to' things you do when you feel this way?"I...

it's been an interesting day. I came to a place today where I was taking care of things well enoughand then suddenly I got mixed up. I was trying to think about taking myself out for a hike or whatI...

I have nothing to complain about. I am taking a personal leave from work until May 14 and then I havea job I am going back to at that date. I am lucky.I am trying to assess the good things I have in...

Did all my errands for the day. Now I could do a load of laundry and clean Blue's litter box.

I think to a certain extent we all are feeling like we're living in these tiny bubbles of protectedlife because of the COVID pandemic. I find myself going commando from home to the Trader Joe's...

I find myself thinking a lot about 'cause and effect' today just to keepmyself managed during 'this time.' To eat and to exercise, to play with catto keep him happy. To pay my bills and clean my...

I woke up this morning and felt no sense of time or urgency. It's a positive aspect of what we're all going through.I wrestled a little bit with that before I got going with the day, and got onto the...