malibumark

I am starting my day here...have to make a plan rather than just go with the rythm of it.I mean I guess I can just bounce from thing to thing. To have what's on the television tellme how to live.....

I come from a place of wanting to know that I can achieve things - that I have some senseof control and logic to my life.. a kind of mastery..I struggle with that, as you can probably perceive by...

I was watching tv today after work. I also had an online therapy session today as well.I found myself wanting a snack after lunch and so I went over to the Trader Joe's and pickedup some snacks but...

I am here at the apartment. Went to work this morning and had such a brain fog. I literaly made many errors today.I came home and was planning to go to my friend's office but just needed to stay home...

a weird day here  - but chatting with a friend on Facebook reminded me to take stockand choose things that might help me manage my feelings. I think I will go for a walkafter we chat. But it was so...

I woke up this morning and started my day by playing with Blue, then took a shower and dressedand then decided to go to Starbucks for a coffee. I came back home and I've realized I think I better...

I went to work this morning, and afterwards I came home..did some chores and laundryand then also indulged in my Saturday (or Caturday in this house hehe) party here.I ate a kind of antipasto...

It happens when I go to sleep and it happens when I wake up.For now I am reassuring myself in a META mind kind of way - that "oh yeah, this is what happens duringthese transitions of sleep and...

I went to my parents today to help them with their storage unit.It was a hot day and Dad had to run an errand so my stepmom and I madequick work of it. Then we came home and then after a little bit,...

I kept kind of busy today, though I really didn't have much to do..I kind of did every little thing I could. :)Got up, played with Blue, trimmed my nails, did the dishes, fed Blue,cleaned the litter...

maybe not a new phrase, but it holds new meaning for me.walking back from the dry cleaners this morning, i felt underminedby some of my scrambled energy...weak, upset...but I realized that I still...

hi all, good morning. it's a sunshiney day, birds are singing, got up early with my cat alarm clock because he washungry :). He stood on my chest until I got my ass in gear to "Serve and obey!"...

it's really interesting. I just got out of the shower and dressed for the day. As I was nearly readyI saw Blue sitting on the windowsill. I know he gets startled easily - but I approached him and...

had a good therapy session today...I feel like she is teaching me a lotand am more able to be "OK with everything." In the spirit of that - whenthings come up that are upsetting, I am more inclined...