malibumark

I believe in god and I believe in prayer...though to be honest, when I haveprayed for things in my life, usually it would come to no avail and very oftenthe exact opposite of what I was hoping...

I have been having my ups and downs as you all have been witness to in my journals.I have to say that since getting BLUE (my cat), having him to think about has delivered me to the truththat no...

each day brings like a new set of software to it...i go to sleep in the evening and sometimes struggle to let goand let sleep happenand then this morning - I wake up and find myself feeling...

just been moody today - feeling anxiety - anger - tirednessand have no real solutions except for writing this postand focusing on friends.this too shall pass. i'm betting/hoping.

things are pretty good here.. I usually wake up around 5 to 530am on the weekends.I'm just used to getting up early because of my job.Today I was lying in bed - in half slumber, I sensed it was still...

I was going to go to a local nature park today, called the "Peter Strauss Ranch."When I researched it just now I found it was closed due to the fires that happened arounda year and a half ago. It was...

My therapist suggested today when I was telling her about my failing, she offered the perspective that "Maybe that is just one of your quirks and not a tragedy "... now later today.. it has finally...

I struggled yesterday with paranoid thoughts ... I tried to manage themand build myself up to a point of strength (with a new grounded mindset ) and so I was moving forward..then I got a text from my...

I've been coming to know some new things as the days have passed sincemy last therapy session. I've been going to work every day - and observationsof 'how I am' in the world have come to me - well -...

gosh I'd like to cut loose right now..just got the contemporary Christmas music going..it's a nice change from the mostly classical I listen to.I guess this is me tooting my own horn, and I think...

Yesterday and today I've noticed how if I get an idea to do something..in terms of a goal...that goal can get knocked out of my head pretty easily by the forces of life - and I realized this -...

I hope you guys can live for the day. Don't worry if your life doesn't looklike someone else's. People may comment on how you're living - but if you live in a way that makes sense to you - and your...

i don't get too many phone calls...but I do get moreSPAM calls than I do legitimate ones. I usually don'tanswer if I don't recognize the number but today I didand do that once in a while. They're so...

Gosh I found myself at first in the morning so lonely and wanting friends aroundto do stuff together and just be with them.Then my mind went to building my day - and I can do that - I went to get...

Woke up early, still dark outside...decided to get up, dress and goto the Starbucks. Found myself feeling pretty lonely this morning forsome reason...thought to myself everyone's gotta do this life...