feel like chatting

I talked to my therapist yesterday and I told her about how I was finding a way to

look past the intimidation factors of a failure or two.

So much of my time, or just very often,I might conceive of a goal and then

imagine a failure which then 'shuts the door' on my attempt to achieve it.

I've been feeling more broader and more nebulous lately and I feel like I am coming to know,

and am predicting that "I am going to fail at some point" but to work with that failure

or work around it - and keep going is important and that phenonmenon is more in my sights right now.

She commented that it would be interesting to talk to artists about that point ..of failures..

- I suppose because I am a painter.

Anyways, today I am just 'awake to the idea' of making my own life.

Having the life that I make .... that I take the initiative to create.

I know at times I might feel very weak but I can fight forward - lift myself

up and just get on with it. 

Right now I just came back from a really nice cafe - where I had a coffee.

I have the rest of the day to make. I'll make my bed and put on a load of laundry.

I'll go and get a birthday card and present for my little sister tomorrow

after work.

There's a world out there waiting for us..let's get to be a part of it!