malibumark

I don't know why I reacted this way...but I had some nice moments today to start... I texted with my sister, my father and stepmom..and then I had an online therapy session.. and it was nice to have...

I don't know why it is but for some reason, transitioning from one social group to being on my own islike a whirlpool of deepening worry for me. It sucks me in, and it drills me down like a corkscrew...

my boss at the market texted me and said I have an extra day off (tomorrow) because of the paid holidaytoday and she knows that I can earn only so much a week. She is SO nice to me and I really want...

I had some ups and downs yesterday and this morning. Felt a darkness withinbut the gumption to keep on keeping on. I am starting to cop to the regularity of stuffand in that regularity - rather than...

Name 3 things you did today that you feel proud about.

I've been thinking about Lazarus lately.I wonder if he was catatonically depressed and so.."DEAD" to those around him.I wonder if Jesus gave him a wonderful hug and revived him and so brought...

I'm not bitter - just a bit messed up. I have some challenges today - trying real hard to overcome them and be productive - and become positive about the day and what I do with it.No need to...

do any of you guys experience this? for some reason, like right now,i had an inspiring time of going out to a park I had never been to before.I had done all my chores and then took the time to go to...

hi all, got up this morning slowly, so nice on a sunday morning. turned on CBS' Sunday morningand then merged into Face the Nation..Blue as usual wants his 'first thing in the morning' cuddles...he...

I am thinking about the monastery again. Kind of on an emotional 'high tide' right now.I am drawn to it - because there is a lot of regularity and predictability. A life living in communitybut also...

I came home from work. Wrote the previous jounal and then went to buy the bigger cat carrier. I feel this utter longing inside - -  like I feel like eating cookies and drinkingbeer or guiness or...

I went to bed last night thinking about how I would really like to go back to the monastery and be in community livinga life there...I also recognized that I need to keep near my family - because of...

for some reason, Blue is limping. I've noticed hejumps off things and seems to land very forcefullfy.He finally injured himself.

It's probably because I go back to work at the market, maybe the anxiety is building up in a backhanded depression.Just seems like a bunch of things impacted me yesterday and today - and now I am...

so if you can find something productive to do today that will make you proud of yourself at the end of the day--please try to make sure you spend some time on that-