good morning - found my 'reset' & the flux

I woke up this morning very very early - I went to sleep very very early - the sun was going down yesterday

and I just had no reason - no interest - in watching tv or doing anything else. I suppose I could have read a book but the spirit didn't move me to do so. I slept a good long time..

So I woke up so early and checked the time and then - went back to bed - and then woke up again at 530am - though I had no motivation

to do 'anything of my usual routine' - I just moved forward -  I just overuled the sloth and and decided to dress and go to Starbucks.

I went to Starbucks and got a coffee and started to 'get into' the morning. I was glad I went out.

However I came home and again felt no motivation to deal with the day - to set my own agenda -

but again I overruled the 'nebulous morning fog' within and just thought about my goals - 

goals that seem unsurmountable - but looked at my tiny 'to do list' - 'I have a little something!' - I thought..

and I also thought about going back to work tomorrow morning. That inspired me ..

I called my two phone tasks and then went to the bank.

I came home and I made and ate the first big meal of the day and then decided to go to the local horse park

for a walk...This place has become my saving grace. My reset button.

I love going there and always feel good after a lap or so.

..I feel well now - not entirely well mentally - but I feel mentally ready to deal with the ups and downs and confusions.

Call it a good day? Call it 'flux'or call it the inspiration to start recognizing the 'merit of acceptance' and then 'cognitive adjustments'

...when the bell of health doesn't ring within. :-)

I feel like I am in good company here - and coming online to reflect that I am writing, not just for myself to myself,

but amongst comrades helps me feel alive, like I am kept 'in check' with the outside world of like minds and emotions.

Sending peace and good vibes!! Good wishes and good kharma!