Suffering
Still suffering, missing my baby...I had a dream, sort of, of needing to borrow her shoes so I did and I sort of woke up feeling like, she'd never have worn those shoes again...it really is forever.
Sometimes I get scared that this is all there is, so hard to admit that...but it terrifies me. I want her back, at least to see her again.
An doctor, raised atheist, lost her son to suicide, then wrote a book "Channeling Erik". She has answered some of my e-mails. One in particular, she reminded me, even in science, energy never dies, only changes form. It helped a lot to remember that, coming from a woman of science, previously atheist. She says she communicates more now and is closer now to her son than when he was alive, in this life. Gosh, I wish I could visit Teresa Caputo.
Sometimes I get scared that this is all there is, so hard to admit that...but it terrifies me. I want her back, at least to see her again.
An doctor, raised atheist, lost her son to suicide, then wrote a book "Channeling Erik". She has answered some of my e-mails. One in particular, she reminded me, even in science, energy never dies, only changes form. It helped a lot to remember that, coming from a woman of science, previously atheist. She says she communicates more now and is closer now to her son than when he was alive, in this life. Gosh, I wish I could visit Teresa Caputo.
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I\'m sure that has been so very helpful to be in contact with the woman who knows this walk.
I\'m with you on Teresa, I would love that too.
Learning how to communicate and feel our children in their non physical form takes time and I ask Douglas all the time to help me not to miss too much. I have always had a sense that our children work so very hard and that in our human form we miss so much... I don\'t want to miss anything anymore, an opportunity to pause and to feel close is what I long for.
With you in these \"shoes\" none of us wish we ever had to try to fit into. I suppose that is why I go barefoot most of the time now. Those \"shoes\" have never felt right... I understand your dream had a bit of a different meaning to it, yet it reminded me of the shoes we as mothers are left to wear. Deepest of sighs...
Loving care and may you feel Cassi in only the way that you as her mother can.
XO Joanie
You must know that Freudians believe the shoe represents the vagina, the vulva, and the foot, then, is the penis that enters it. Our children came into this world through these private places, and the miracle of their birth is present in their very cells, mixed forever within our own. Suffering does become more bearable as we get used to our \"new normal\". Life still has surprises and joy for us, if we can just survive our grief. Love, Abby
Wishing you love and peace. Many people have communicated with their children through a spiritualist. It has given them a lot of peace.
There are times I feel Lisa around me and am at peace. You will eventually find a way to feel near your Cassi. I do believe that the energy of our kids is around us.
Tight hugs, M
In a Moms DNA we have the worry gene. That part of our life will never go away. We will always miss and worry about our Angels and those we have here on Earth.
I am with you with Theresa I would love for her to come and tell us about our children. I would love to hear what Mike would say to me now.....
Missing our children is a day to day life, Not everyday I feel the loss the same way. I do hope you feel better today then yesterday.
Tight hugs
Penny
This path is a tough one and one we did not choose. I know we all wish we could have done something different along the way to have changed things, but we could not. It takes a lot of time, but it does get a bit easier after awhile. I wish I could give you a tight hug or do something to help.
Sending love,
Leda