malibumark

it's weird how I need to walk myself through certain things...like when a mood can elevate or depress and then I get lost in it - I need to not catastrophize itand right now it's really hot too -...

why why do I make my choices in my life so complicatedrunning over the details of who would like it and who wouldn't the only one I need to please here is me, i think.are my plans because of...

I went to work today, it was a busy day. Lots to do - and just focused and did it..Came home from work, had my lunch and then went to my room where I had a couplecans of guiness stashed in my closet....

I wrote this earlier in the week: It's really coming clear to me that every day, each day, I seem to be writing a book in my mind "how to get through the day" - Things are good. I feel good. I will...

I did feel hyper earlier today.. I learned to focus my energies though and got on with the day...I felt off the charts but I was able to settle down and put a 'lid on my head' to create an...

I got really hyper this morning - and now I need to bring myself down...kind of have to find my center and order.It's ok, it will be ok - I can do this - I just have to put a lid on it..flexible...

I feel untethered and not so strong. I need firmament but I am starting to look at the reality that I needto 'live with' and deal with my insecurity. I don't feel strong but I can be knowing at...

took myself out for a long walk today.I went to work earlier...came back and ate some lunch...watched some television.kind of felt like buying myself some treats, or something to drink but held...

Ok did some big things today - and now just need to go for a walk..shake away the blues and just take care of life - choose positive...

did some filing right now and have started watching cooking shows. really relaxing..kind of makes me feel everything is gonna be alright. :)just a good moment... now back to work!

I just came from getting my car serviced.I don't think they did anything because the car was out front less than a half an hourafter they said they would start work. I know I have to handle...

I am seeing that though I have been systematizing my day's activities - creating routines and order - as a way to deal with time..I see I also now need to be creative with that challenge... So often...

I went to work this morning. Felt like overnight, while trying to sleep that my mind abused me.I went to work feeling dumb and wounded ...but I persisted. I am glad I did.  I got a lot of work...

just went for a walk, I am sick of the TV.I journeyed outside and just enjoyed the time out of doors.Part of me felt the intense sun as something to seek shelter from - likea cat might when touching...

I went for a walk today. It's a beautiful sunny day.Not really sure what else to do - but I am glad I did that.. that I tried to do something.Maybe I will look into some meetup.com stuff.There's a...