malibumark

I have tried real hard to be as rational as I could be about how to manage myselfmy energies. I think I am getting there. I see patterns in my behavior, in the way I thinkand feel and ask myself...

I have no real need to write now, except for the social contact it might bring.Today is a good day. I went on working this morning and I thought about somethingthe author David Sedaris said in a...

I woke up today and my right eye, which started to feel 'off' last night,was really puffy and like focused off to the right of my vision when I looked in the mirror.It might be a sty but I am not...

words, words, words, more words than I have ever heardwords words words - a sip of beer - not too much, just some more words.the day is passing by, words, words, words... reach for the stars or take...

Today wasn't that bad, I went to work, did what I needed to do, then came backand started to see real possibility for my day. I didn't just bury my head in the sand.I did a lot of little chores and...

I was at work earlier today...did my thing and what the work required.More and more I am seeing each day with folks at work as a way to learn to get along. Some people want to be friends, some...

ok I could call them coping mechanisms, but that would deny the reality of them in my mind.I would state that and gloss over what they really mean to me. I have heard others use the termof tool box...

I researched volunteer opportunities for myself. There's onearound the corner from here. It's pretty straight forward. I don't knowwhere it will lead, if it will lead anywhere or if it will be...

last night I ambitiously wrote a list of all the things I have been planning to do - my mind may lose its place and at times I may start talking to my parents like I haven't made other goals with a...

i can't sleep tonight. Having a lot of mental turmoil.It's hard to keep a good integrity about things because my mind changes so muchand it's hard to keep up with the changes. So I am focusing on my...

I get so lost in appeasing my appetites. I don't seem to thinkof looking outside of it (under the water line) to do much morethan: eat, drink and keep glued to the TV. I need some stiffener...

I flirt with going my own direction at times in terms of career and work but it seems I am very fearful of relyingon my own faculty to carry me through and support me in this kind of effort... and so...

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The vicissitudes of the day. Seeing the peaks and valleys and the mess and unmess of my mind...holding outfor the good moments. I find I am learning and leaning towards wanting a 'just mine'...

it seems that I can come to a place of peace and then an undermining thoughtwill kick in, the struggle and fight and anguish within me. It is very hard to live with this.I have been learning to look...