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I really felt like I hit rock bottom today. A friend who I saw at the book signinghad said to me - "don't just look at the big picture when you're aiming for a goal" "take it each step at a time"she...

I am obsessing this morning. It's like a crazy squirrel energy in my head. I shy away from doing thingswith my day...it's like I am afraid to assert myself in the world...so many times that has lead...

went to work and kind of buzzed around... I thought about my weaknessesa lot and maybe 'what I am not' ...but then I thought about what I am...I thought about focusing on the need to do what is right...

sharing the good vibes. Not my window but is just a good pic!

I went to work today and then came home.I was struggling with some forces within me that seemed to bedragging me down into sadness while working along...I tried all sortsof creative thinking to try...

I should probably follow through by calling that therapist my Psychiatrist recommended.I have some ideas today that I really just want to vent about.I went to work and my whole disposition seemed to...

I was buzzing around the marketplace floor,doing the work that needed to get doneyou come into contact with coworkersand the customers...some are kind... the coworkers usually areand the customers...

  "The unending paradox is that we do learn through pain." — Madeleine L'Engle I'VE BEEN THINKING...There I was last Sunday, sitting on my porch reading, when I came across a fascinating and...

I am at home after doing some Christmas Shopping. Just enjoying the time of this Sunday right now as it passes by.I often wonder at life, though I can't always give form to my wonderings, it's likea...

I think there's a part of me that gets discouraged very easily. My mind is in the frame setof being aware I have a 'faulty filter' aka the illness and I think in part this compounds within mea...

I am having a good day so far. Very thankful. My thoughts and feelings have turned around from how I felt when I first came home work.I worked well, so I felt a sense of command from that, but in...

I went to work today and came home. Did an errand to the post office - sent outall my christmas cards - except for two. I came back to the apartment. Itwas raining 'cats and dogs', a rarity for Los...

Things are going alright. Yesterday I had a bout of nervousness that came aboutafter I was at my parents' house. I struggled to find my footing and I kind of upset my Dad a little bit. I think he's...

My feelings overflowed my reason and decided it was important trying to keep pragmatic here and now I find my energies now are turning my mind quite dark. So I am trying to meditate and just be in a...