where to begin

I really felt like I hit rock bottom today. A friend who I saw at the book signing

had said to me - "don't just look at the big picture when you're aiming for a goal" "take it each step at a time"

she said. "Looking at the big picture only can make it seem like a hurdle too big to surmount and then you may give up before it's begun."

I see that as really good thinking. I went to my Dad's house today and just hung out with him and my little sister.

I felt like I got a real sense of myself and it wasn't a pretty picture. I didn't feel bad being around my family - I felt accepted for who I am - a member of the family - but I left hoping I can knock away at some goal to further my life

a bit more.