malibumark

I think I like Socialism. Though I totally respectand appreciate the firey nature and spirit of individualismwhich drives us forward. It's really a balance and a mixed bag.I appreciate those who have...

I am home from work and it's the start of my first few hours of the weekend.I am practicing "hygge" - I am really enjoying it.Things are good.Peace and Namaste!M

I am laughing because I don't want to cry and I guess that's just how life is.I went to a lunch meeting yesterday - first one in a long time - and I noticed my reticence to be open and positive...

I don't think my therapist likes me. It's just a hunch.The way she answers questions. I just don't know ifit's the best thing for me to go on with the program.I am kind of obsessing and nervous...

I am a nervous wreck today. Got something significant done but now I am at home, under a blanket in front of the tv. Weird. I also I went to make myself a usual meal for myself and it seemed odd and...

My mother passed away in 1996. I celebrate Mother's Day with my Stepmom, and all my relatives who are mothers.I woke up this morning and my mood started amping up a great deal. Then I suddenly drew...

my therapist brought up my mother today. Since Mother's Day is approaching.She really seems to want to upset the apple cart. I do why she brought her up.All I know is that it made me start to obsess...

sometimes there doesn't seem to be a safe place to beexcept for not reaching out and cocooning in your own home.I bought a bottle of wine and some blue tortilla chips and salsa.That's tomorrow's...

keeping it managed.Before I went to yoga today I was feeling suicidal. I really felt like therelike I was in darkness and it was me - I decided to go to yoga class as I thought it might reset my...

I am home from the office and I went for a walk to the coffee shop.Then I came back and plopped in front of the tely - and had a bowl ofcereal. Thinking about the future, thinking about my next...

i sit here and watch tv and feel ultimately like my life isn't that great or worth much...but i'd like it to be like the lives I see on tv.. I am watching Bloomberg Technology newsand it seems to be...

I realized yesterday that getting down to doing a job like housework involves dealingwith the chaos of it at first - everyone has to deal with it - and it is something to just accept  earlier...

I may be able to understand things sometimes but it's like something in my mind can never be satisfied.I try and understand it - but I can never keep busy enough and then I have to stop and rest -...

I came home from work yesterday and sat myself in front of the tv.I realized much of my impulse was to merge with a kind of all encompassing meaning and indulgence. It's like I wanted to be alone,...