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I woke up this morning after a night where I really beat myself up.I am still doing it. I don't know why. I need to some how give myselfsome affirmation and though I feel really low and hopeless I...

I am sorry to be a bummer. But in my daily routine and actionsI may have the spector of not feeling right within me. I also knowthat I must carry on with daily activities even so. I can do that. I...

I feel fractured from a minor incident earlier today.Before that I was feeling positive.It's weird how one moment of disconnect or harshnesscan throw me off balance. I need to manifest some...

I am sitting here in my home waiting to go to my brother's house up the coast.After this trip to the monastery I realized a lot that I wrote about before. ButI realize now too that as I sit here I am...

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I just got back from the monastery today. I learned a lot while being there.It's a very structured place but it's also a very communal place for work, livingand also coming together for services. The...

just a quiet day here but i have to say my moods make it seem a lot lessquiet than it actually is. this is something i am learning at work while i workas well. my mood may be like a grouchy oger...

I know we all have to take care of ourselves, it feels as though the energy inside mewhich needs such wrangling, takes all the enthusiasm and cognition to 'get on' with the dayoutside of that....

Today I am hyper aware at how lonely I feel. My feelings aren't muddled - I know what I am feelingand I feel lonely - and it's pretty painful. I want to escape it by eating food or drinking an...

I've realized today that TV will suck the life out of you and your day.It totally works against me and my goal efforts. If I turn it on, I get suckedinto watching and waiting and just sitting there...

I get so caught up in my head (haha if you haven't noticed) buttoday as I was working, the ideas from yesterday when at home just kind of matured and bubbledand when I came home today I thought about...

As I walk along in the day I am noticing rhythms of moods..likea rubber band inside me...I'll feel up one moment and thensomething will happen..a thought an interaction and my mood will dipand yet...

we're all different and have different sides and we've all got survival challenges.the other day when I wrote about feeling like I was opening my eyes to diversity and feelinglike I lived in a...

do you ever wonder about your future or heck, even the present and wonderabout where would be a safe place to put yourself? My new therapist heard metalking about me going to my friend's monastery...