malibumark

I am recognizing that I can be hyper vigilant - worried very much about 'how I am being' and 'how I want my behavior to be' - I am getting past it though - My psychiatrist on Friday offered to me the...

I am having a struggling time to do something with my day. I am falling into old patterns but trying to suss that out. Trying to learnfrom things so that I don't make the same mistakes over and...

I used to paint and draw a lot. I never seemed to master any style well enough to be satisfied.I tried different things and always looked for a quality I could never sense. I ultimately found...

I went to work this morning, worked well - and then came home and then went to get my haircut.I wasn't frightened to talk to the haircutter today - I was actually relaxed when he was working on...

my brother went to stay somewhere else. he will be back I presume at some point and he is verywelcome! but his absence now has me reckoning the 'being alone and back to my schedule' so to speakbut in...

I came home from work and had a great sense of clarity about my life. I feltlike my chest was opening to spirituality and joy of life. For somereason I obsess a little bit and look for answers or...

I think what a lot of this writing has to do is for a way for me to battle the emptiness in my life.I seem to perfect ideas, look for a wisdom and it feels like being productive. I mean, it may have...

I am feeling really strange today. Like I am kind of having a hangover but I haven'thad a drink. I am just managing my day - but wonder about my future potential.My parents really encourage me to...

I was at my parents' house yesterday and I really started to appreciate how busyand focused they are on their lives. Instead of just feeling as an awkward outsideI started to think that I should...

I am starting to be ok with seeing the process of my life as being the main focus to keep.I also have started to think about the idea of having someone in my life... I am facing the solitudeand I...

I am home from work. I made lunch and ate it. Got some paperwork preparedthat I am going to 'attack' this Monday and get it done. I have been onlineand I texted a couple of people. I am alone. I...

thinking about the essentials today. thoughts, feelings and actions...and my nature as a human being...I wonder how we inter-relate in a socially responsible wayand yet have a human nature full of...

this morning I wrote a text to my friend the Abbess Aemiliane of a monastery that is on the other side of the country.I have to say that my moods and the disruption of my inner life because of...

right now I am remembering the prayer style of the buddhist prayer group I went to whenI lived in Malibu. I really liked it and I think it is something I can take a lesson from.I seem to go from...