malibumark

I wrote some things earlier. I went to the market and did errands.I came home..did some chores and then things started to speed upquite a bit. I had a cup of tea, and a bowl of cereal and it seems...

I arrived at work trouble by my own issues, mind and I just pushed on.As the day moved on, I tried to deal with the jostling of coworkers and customers...whereas as once I might try to build an inner...

I am realizing that I don't just have answers for the inside - I also have answers for the outside.I need to keep searching for things I need in my life that add to the quest of fulfilling my...

I don't know why - but the weird machine in my mind lead me to concludelast night that I have a hard time with the dynamic of who I actually am and whoI ought to be. That sense of disappointment...

last night I went to my sister's house where we all gathered as a familyfor a dinner. It was really nice...It taught me a great lesson.My therapist is asking me to question the feelings I have when I...

I was encouraged by a friend to go for a new goal yesterday. It seems really interestingand exciting. I had never thought about this. Part of me projected this morning that I am toostupid for the...

Today has been really challenging as my mind kept on asking questionsas I worked and as I drove home that I couldn't possibly answer. I had to talk to myself a bit "talk myself down"from the upset...

I ate my lunch and did some cleaning around here. I signed up for a yoga class for tomorrow and then also registered for aa https://www.mountainstrust.org/ event for April 6. I love nature and I...

When I am alone I tend to think of themes of identity.. to make sense of myself maybe? - it seems no wonder really....it is my way of dealing with my own sense of self when I am alone, my way of...

I woke up this morning not really knowing where to start. So I turnedon the CBS morning show and just layed there for a bit. I put my clothes in the dryer from the washing I did last night.I texted...

I came home from a movie, after having been engaged for most of the day. First breakfast with my Dad, then yoga class, and then a movie. It's an adjustment coming home into the silence and to adjust...

I go to breakfast with my Dad in a few minutes. I am really lucky we can do that.I will then go to yoga class and then return back here, probably be back at around 1pm.It's the start of the...

I hope all is well with you guys out there. It's been a strange day. I couldn't feel much hopeor reason for living in truth. But at a moment of feeling really down, I thought aboutwhat one of my...

my therapist said to me that people with mood disorders and psychosis, if they stay alonetoo long, they tend to start feeling 'alien.' That's pretty true for me - but the concept made methink to...

I just came from my therapy appointment. It was ok.We talked about my past week and she was a good guider.I also mentioned the poem I had posted about "Welcome to Holland."She said she knew it... and...