malibumark

my therapist is out of town for ten days and I find that I really have become dependent on her. DS is a nice place to type out stuff but ‘in person’ face to face conversation is a really crucial...

I spent the whole day alone yesterday and this morning.My usual visits did not happen. I did go for coffee a couple times.For the most part I was alone, and the vast emptiness seemedto be magnified....

Just watching videos here of singers and songs I like.Went for a long walk and got another coffee.Wish my therapist were here LOL. I have got to justkeep at things that I genuinely like doing - and...

I'd really like to talk to someone right now, my therapist or a friend, so instead I took a long walk and I am just trying to find pleasure in the moment. I thinkI go through periods of order and...

i am sitting here in my apartment and the passions and confusion... I don’t know how people keep it straight.

I don’t really have much to write. Went to work this morning then came home and napped for an hour and then went to therapy. Came back and grocery shopped and then ate a huge lunch. I feel good. My...

my feelings and suspicion at times make me think things that are not true. It’s frustrating not only because I can assume the worst and go down a rabbit hole of thoughts and mental spinning but...

My sister once said, a long, long time ago, that life is about moments.I totally understand that and agree. Trying to be mindful right now. Though the things that happen within,when my life is...

I was with my family todayand now I am alone in my apartment.My mind is consumed by need. I am eating snacks and drinking wine.I realize as is when I am with my family or friends, now aloneI am...

went to work this morning. Wasn’t one of my better days. Felt knocked around and feckless and just went with the flow. So I got my work done. Which I suppose could be a feather in my cap. I came...

was feeling pretty good today. I went to the market and then to the office.I am so enjoying the office. It's a lot of fun! I get to help build this thing from scratch and add my perspective.So I came...

I went to the market this morning - did my work.Then I came home, made a meal and changed and went to the office.Then came back here and have been alone except for a couple tinytexts that I made and...

I am so grateful for this new opportunity at my friend's office.It's made me feel full of potential, at least the future seems like it has somepotential, more than it did before starting it.I have...

I am learning to parse the difference between momentary discontentment and keeping relatively positive about things. I realize I keep to myself mostly, I have a small and quiet life, because that is...