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I go to breakfast with my Dad in a few minutes. I am really lucky we can do that.I will then go to yoga class and then return back here, probably be back at around 1pm.It's the start of the...

I hope all is well with you guys out there. It's been a strange day. I couldn't feel much hopeor reason for living in truth. But at a moment of feeling really down, I thought aboutwhat one of my...

my therapist said to me that people with mood disorders and psychosis, if they stay alonetoo long, they tend to start feeling 'alien.' That's pretty true for me - but the concept made methink to...

I just came from my therapy appointment. It was ok.We talked about my past week and she was a good guider.I also mentioned the poem I had posted about "Welcome to Holland."She said she knew it... and...

I was feeling pretty poorly this morning.. just now in fact.I wrote a journal to that effect. I looked at this site but felt quitealone...isolated and out of control...but it dawned on me...we'reall...

I woke up this morning after a night where I really beat myself up.I am still doing it. I don't know why. I need to some how give myselfsome affirmation and though I feel really low and hopeless I...

I am sorry to be a bummer. But in my daily routine and actionsI may have the spector of not feeling right within me. I also knowthat I must carry on with daily activities even so. I can do that. I...

I feel fractured from a minor incident earlier today.Before that I was feeling positive.It's weird how one moment of disconnect or harshnesscan throw me off balance. I need to manifest some...

I am sitting here in my home waiting to go to my brother's house up the coast.After this trip to the monastery I realized a lot that I wrote about before. ButI realize now too that as I sit here I am...

Welcome to Holland.https://www.facebook.com/bbctwo/videos/675370892879017/

I just got back from the monastery today. I learned a lot while being there.It's a very structured place but it's also a very communal place for work, livingand also coming together for services. The...

just a quiet day here but i have to say my moods make it seem a lot lessquiet than it actually is. this is something i am learning at work while i workas well. my mood may be like a grouchy oger...

I know we all have to take care of ourselves, it feels as though the energy inside mewhich needs such wrangling, takes all the enthusiasm and cognition to 'get on' with the dayoutside of that....

Today I am hyper aware at how lonely I feel. My feelings aren't muddled - I know what I am feelingand I feel lonely - and it's pretty painful. I want to escape it by eating food or drinking an...

I've realized today that TV will suck the life out of you and your day.It totally works against me and my goal efforts. If I turn it on, I get suckedinto watching and waiting and just sitting there...