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I went to work today and then came home.I was struggling with some forces within me that seemed to bedragging me down into sadness while working along...I tried all sortsof creative thinking to try...

I should probably follow through by calling that therapist my Psychiatrist recommended.I have some ideas today that I really just want to vent about.I went to work and my whole disposition seemed to...

I was buzzing around the marketplace floor,doing the work that needed to get doneyou come into contact with coworkersand the customers...some are kind... the coworkers usually areand the customers...

  "The unending paradox is that we do learn through pain." — Madeleine L'Engle I'VE BEEN THINKING...There I was last Sunday, sitting on my porch reading, when I came across a fascinating and...

I am at home after doing some Christmas Shopping. Just enjoying the time of this Sunday right now as it passes by.I often wonder at life, though I can't always give form to my wonderings, it's likea...

I think there's a part of me that gets discouraged very easily. My mind is in the frame setof being aware I have a 'faulty filter' aka the illness and I think in part this compounds within mea...

I am having a good day so far. Very thankful. My thoughts and feelings have turned around from how I felt when I first came home work.I worked well, so I felt a sense of command from that, but in...

I went to work today and came home. Did an errand to the post office - sent outall my christmas cards - except for two. I came back to the apartment. Itwas raining 'cats and dogs', a rarity for Los...

Things are going alright. Yesterday I had a bout of nervousness that came aboutafter I was at my parents' house. I struggled to find my footing and I kind of upset my Dad a little bit. I think he's...

My feelings overflowed my reason and decided it was important trying to keep pragmatic here and now I find my energies now are turning my mind quite dark. So I am trying to meditate and just be in a...

I am tired of it. I really try hard and yet I am handicapped by it. Mental handicaps are the worst.Maybe too much time off work, but I know right now I just need to keep going along. Waitingto hear...

what I spoke about yesterday in my comments after my initial post - about being resolute by the answers we figure out or discover - I think those answers also affirm us - in our walk - and make us...

I have been suggested to by my psychiatrists that finding a therapist to mull life over withtwice a month or so would probably be a useful thing for me. I am petrified at the prospect offinding one...

remembering where you are.I woke up this morning and at the outset I felt great from the sleep and then the gnawing invasiveness of my mind started. I could let it make me squirrel inward finding...