buzzing about things, managing and now writing
I realized yesterday that getting down to doing a job like housework involves dealing
with the chaos of it at first - everyone has to deal with it - and it is something
to just accept
earlier today I realized that as we move forward in l life and have to be self responsible
about our emotions as much as possible, it is not a finite point of order.. it could also
be seen as a process. Something to process through, provide for and "therapize", for lack of a better word, through
both preventive and afterwords.
I am seeing my weakness and individual nature - and yet I see the nature of life too - I don't know how people get through it - and also have so much abundance in their lives of work, relationships and offspring. finances . I am grateful for what I have
and will try to produce something in my life - I know it's a process to find it or discover it...so.... start the process - let it begin!
I read a great article about how finding your passion really isn't the greatest of advice....it takes time and experience to start to love something or really to start to be good at it..It was just a suggestion but it kind of helps me work with the thoughts of wanting to find what I am looking to do with life (wish that epiphany could happen all at once) but I reckon from experience and the suggestion of the article.... that finding might take a process as well. This illness certainly makes me feeling like I am starting all over again nearly every day from scratch but 'oh well.' I write these stupid observations every day - just needing to talk about them and hoping I have something to contribute...I talk myself out of almost everything. Perhaps I should just keep at it.
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