malibumark

just came back from the city today. the evacuation order was lifted.it's amazing how 'shocked and turned around' the whole event made me feel.I stayed at two different places, so thankful for friends...

learning to live with pain and confusion - and then without personal clarity or motivation at times.This day may not make a lot of sense - but perhaps this journal is a kind offocal point of...

it's weird but after a good realization today, one of being ready to reframe my perspective in order toadjust and achieve a goal to quell my discomfort and disquiet, I realized what is clearly a...

when I set about thinking what I would like to do with my spare time, I tend to falter and get hooked up on those things that would make sense for me to do aka - what I SHOULD do - when I am home...

it's odd what I get up to, to feel good about myself.I was talking to my Psychiatrist when he mentioned that I couldgo to therapy and he asked me what I would like from it?  and I said"I'd like to...

I started the day feeling lowly and awful. Then a friend messaged me, and I messaged a few others.I decided to take myself out to coffee - and then those who I messaged, messaged me back. My outlook...

https://www.guggenheim.org/exhibition/hilma-af-klintThis artist is named Hilma af Klint. I had never heard of herbefore. If you link ot the address above and then scroll downto the video - you will...

I am remembering what Jan said to me that sometimes she likes just being with her thoughts and life.I find that so much of my time is about managing myself - it's like I need to know what I am doing...

I guess things are alright. I struggled to find the worthiness of myself to do something today. I think how others have to decide what to do as well. I don't know why it is such a struggle for me to...

I woke up in the middle of the night with a hard to deal with thought.I got up, washed and dressed and went to work.I felt so caught up in the melee that is working amongst others.I usually have a...

I have found myself today doing something that I have done oh so many times in the past.I have done chores and then once finished, I have sat down on the couch in front of the tvas a way to calm...

I woke up today, did my errands and tasks around the apartment.Then I had lunch and also made a list of things I plan to do.I took a nap - but then with just the empty space around meI realize I...

I was at my parents' today and I was realizing that I know I have a needto feel special or good about myself in my life. They can't always provide that - as they are living theirlives and I need to...

I am recognizing that I can be hyper vigilant - worried very much about 'how I am being' and 'how I want my behavior to be' - I am getting past it though - My psychiatrist on Friday offered to me the...