malibumark

I have a pattern of how I think. I am just getting a better glimpse at it.I don't know what to do about it.. It is something I just have to work with.I feel as though I have to fight it to keep...

I went to work today, it was a good day at work. I don't know whereI am going but having the work and being around others was a welcome shiftin focus. Now that I am home from work, I won't focus on...

I went to a party last night. It was good to see my friends from High School,but as I was talking to one friend's husband my hands and drink's glass started to shake.Not sure why I was so scared.I...

I went to my parents' house yesterday, and when I came home, for whatever reason (after posting some thoughts of complaint), I started to see a kind of boundary to my life, to myself. It gave me...

I really want to talk to someone. I don't know if this is important but when I was out todaywith an old colleague, we chatted over coffee and I found myself fatiguing as I was talking to her -I...

This past week at, one point, I was struggling with myself to be something better, and yet ultimatelyI felt like 'half a person.' It made me think about what a friend posted as his motto "We each...

I am feeling like every time I get close to feeling pleasurable about my life - I get afraid and I feel I should changemyself. I wonder what would be good for me to do with my life and I think I need...

I am home now. I am alone. As much as I would like to be with othersthe alone time is unavoidable. It's here. I realize that I want to make myself feelspecial. It's what I do when I am at home. I...

I went to work today, after some radical mental shit yesterday while I was at home.I worked away there with my coworkers and I kind of understood they were reactingto me differently today. I couldn't...

I went to work today - and before going I felt awful. I mean like anxious, despondentand crap. But I kept going and I eventually told myself...to just accept that this is what I haveto deal with each...

I think we should all support each other and not buy into the negative self talkthat we may have. I went to work and at moments I was torn asunder as I workedmy shift - but I am home now. I am...

I really felt like I hit rock bottom today. A friend who I saw at the book signinghad said to me - "don't just look at the big picture when you're aiming for a goal" "take it each step at a time"she...

I am obsessing this morning. It's like a crazy squirrel energy in my head. I shy away from doing thingswith my day...it's like I am afraid to assert myself in the world...so many times that has lead...

went to work and kind of buzzed around... I thought about my weaknessesa lot and maybe 'what I am not' ...but then I thought about what I am...I thought about focusing on the need to do what is right...

sharing the good vibes. Not my window but is just a good pic!