malibumark

I have lived alone for about a year and a half now.It has been to me a sense of mission to try and do this - toself manage - to manage my energies and life on my own - in a sensethe way I should be...

I work in the morning tomorrow and then I have the day to myself. I’ve been working 6 days a week for the past few weeks and so some chill time will be so welcome. I bought a bottle of wine and...

I have been thinking of my way to capture and talk about my gratitude today.I can't. I think gratitude is some how an action - it fills my day with actions,experiences. I am thankful and I'll keep...

I don't know if I need to write this. I think we all have to do this.I was thinking about strong people today while at work. How they seemto achieve great things and are so clear and full of steam...

I think part of my nature is to have my life the way I'd like it,I think that's in everyone, I think it's the artist in me...butI find that I am learning to adjust for my life and painful as it is,...

I went to work today, then came home and then went to the office.I found myself feeling kind of lost earlier...now not so much..I was asking questions about life, wondering and my mindseemed to be...

I was lying in bed last night, and I was feeling so 'off and alien' from the day.I felt unconsciously in the depths of things - enveloped by the darkness,sadness and depression. Drowning. I thought...

had a good long day. Just got home and I am getting ready for bed.I hope you guys are doing ok. Sending PAX!!!

today started out with a lot of mental storming - underminingand maddening making. I cried a bit and left a message for my therapistat 430a. I worked away and still feel scrambled but I am choosing...

I went to work and felt so empty and depleted...I contemplated some things -like 'why was a feeling so lost an menial now?' "why was I believing that to be the truth/"Even in the face of it - I...

I don’t know why but my mind can undermine me at times. I was shaving and getting ready for bed and my thoughts roamed and went to a consideration of what I am doing for work. It’s nothing grand...

I hoped at taking the positive track this morning. Noticing that I was feeling sad - or getting down straight away when I woke upand I decided to try and keep proactive, busy and positive.As the...

I copied this message from an email newsletter I get every week from Maria Shriver's Sunday Paper.I found the message she wrote inspiring this week. You guys see how I write in my journal a lot.I...

I was thinking just now...actually I was feeling kind of tortured about lifeand then I thought, I wondered about that everyone might have things in theirlives that torture them, stress them, vex them...

I don't know why but I am having a hard time dealing with my alone timeright now. I feel like at times I can get really aware of what I want and what to dobut then that consciousness steeps me in...