malibumark

I went to work this morning.Then came home and ate and changed and darted to the office.Then I met my little sister to buy a present for my Stepmom.Now I am at home.Excercising my ability to stay in...

I went to work today, and got into it. As I worked, I was reminded of my struggle,but I persevered and kind of got to a place where I accepted that overall in or about myselfI have this struggle but...

I've be up and doing my biz since 3am. It's when I usually get up weekdays since I go to work so early.But I just came home from the office and I am catching my breath so to speak. I turned on the...

I started the day feeling so well, so rested and in touch with my place in the world. I was yearning for contact and I realized how social I actually am .. I got stuck on an idea I had...

I went to a family get together for my Father's birthday yesterday.I left the party feeling fearful...at least it's why I am writing here. I'll explain.I find when I leave a place, like with them, I...

going to the meds doctor today as I do once a quarter.I then go to my therapist at 345p. Feeling a little out of control.This morning I made a wrong turn mentally at work. I fear.I need to choose the...

it's like the front of my head is kind of on fired.bizarre. I will lift some weights. I didn't make it to yoga.:( 

I went to work this morning - same ole' same ole' - positive outlook and - got to work- stayed calm and did good work. It's easy to stay directed when I am thinkingin terms of someone else....working...

My illness makes me feel isolated. I sense a difference about me that raises an alarm within that I am different and so my anxiety flairs up and exacerbates an already sense of loneliness. I am...

I went to work this morning....lost and depressed, challenged to find the answers again for the day.Wasn't so motivated when I got to work, I felt the cold shoulder from some of my workmatesbut I...

I had a pretty desperate night last night - and got up for work this morning and went forward.As I started to work, I felt I wasn't moving quickly enough and that I wasn't doing a very good job.I...

when I can't manage my feelings well, it feels like I am in danger and alarm bells are going offit feels like I am wrong or just totally dismayed.so much of my time when alone is about trying to...

I am struggling with ideas this morning, but I am recognizing the commonalityof effort that everyone  has in starting their day. We must find our motivation,we must find our direction and self...

I woke up this morning, much earlier than the sunrise and I got dressedand went for a walk to the Starbucks. I was reeling with regret and anxiousnessfrom yesterday's decision - my decision - to...

I said this to my therapist - but I will record it here too - I feel like I 'so get into' the 'order' and 'structure' of my lifeto kind of numb out from it - if that makes sense.  I went to my...