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I thought about my plan for the vacation - and originally I thoughtof taking a day to myself and just drinking a whole bottle ofsome alcoholic drink - the motivation for this is that I feel so out of...

I am home from work, and I ate a meal and took a shower. Got dressedand I go to therapy in a little while! Woot! I feel a bunch of ideascoming on and I will save it for therapy. Things are alright. I...

I have noticed more and more lately that I have a hard time transitioning to being aloneto being with people and to being back alone again. Perhaps my awareness that it's hard is maybe a sign that I...

I went to the therapist this afternoon and now I feel like I need to heal from that. It has made me realize that on a level we’re all dealing with different shit that comes our way during the day...

Hi guys, I am about to go into the therapist’s office, just in the waiting room now. Life is going ok today. I took care of myself and kind of gave myself what I wanted and needed. It’s coming to...

 the amorphous morning I wake up and and get busy. I've been to the market, to the cleanersand to the bakery. I have the news on and the windows open. It's going to be a hot day.I feel alone. I feel...

I talked to my therapist about what my mind gets up to when I am alone.How I can be really sybaritic and indulgent. She called it...destructive energy.I don't know if it's like when a dog is left...

last night i felt at wits end to try and keep positive, until ultimately I felt detached from what I was watching on the tv. Just didn’t feel engaged and to calm myself I thought that many of us...

my energies get the better of me at times. I try and keepmindful and then slowly my mind speeds up and wants and utlimately I have to just deal with myself. Just dealing,things are ok.

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my therapist is out of town for ten days and I find that I really have become dependent on her. DS is a nice place to type out stuff but ‘in person’ face to face conversation is a really crucial...

I spent the whole day alone yesterday and this morning.My usual visits did not happen. I did go for coffee a couple times.For the most part I was alone, and the vast emptiness seemedto be magnified....

Just watching videos here of singers and songs I like.Went for a long walk and got another coffee.Wish my therapist were here LOL. I have got to justkeep at things that I genuinely like doing - and...

I'd really like to talk to someone right now, my therapist or a friend, so instead I took a long walk and I am just trying to find pleasure in the moment. I thinkI go through periods of order and...

i am sitting here in my apartment and the passions and confusion... I don’t know how people keep it straight.