This morning on my walk

I woke up this morning, much earlier than the sunrise and I got dressed

and went for a walk to the Starbucks. I was reeling with regret and anxiousness

from yesterday's decision - my decision - to leave my parents' house early

and to go home and clean up. I felt guilty because of it - like I hurt their feelings - and I felt impulsive like

throwing my concerns to the winds and doing what was my whim.

On my way back, walking in the super high winds we were having - I suddenly came

to my senses in the middle of my high anxiety. "What a minute" I thought - "You don't usually do this"

and all said and done it is but one mistake and it will pass. I started to calm down a bit - 

And then I also thought about my revelation when spending time with my Dad yesterday - in that

if it didn't seem 'all perfect' to choose the forgiving and better thought in that "I was over all doing

ok" - So that relationship with myself needed some adjustment too in my perspective. I do sometimes

dissapoint myself - which I have thought of before - but also if I did this impulsive thing - overall

my intentions are good. :) I feel calmer now - and ready to go about my day.