malibumark

it seems like when I have time on my hands - like the weekend - I seek an ultimate satisfaction in whichever form that might take.. i need to re-frame that impulse. Hopefully this willadjust my...

I have been feeling the impact of my nature lately. Feeling like I try so hard at living a good life and then feeling dragged down and derailed totally. I don't know why I would be so afflicted,I...

I had some discomforting memories today and they resulted in my fixating on them - feeling humiliated - and then ridiculous. I can't talk about the details because I really don't want to,but here I...

I am having some difficulty right now. I guess it's because I am home alone and watching TV.The person inside me thinks this downtime and unstructured time sitting in front of the television is and...

I went to get my car serviced this morning - but was told that they couldn't fit mein so I made an appointment and will go back next Monday. No big deal.I came home and called my therapist. I called...

hi guys, just wanted to say hi. I find myself feeling pretty clear today. I tend to get really offset by feelingsthat I follow to conclusions but today I am finding a strong center in that I am...

I saw my therapist today and it just felt like her insights with me were kind of off. She mighthave been having a hard day herself.I didn't take anything from them except for maybe the consolation of...

I've had a really labile mood lately. I have felt everything to the extreme. It's been awfuland scary. I am trying to put a logic to it and gain some relief- what most comes to mind is that I just...

I feel ambitious today, now that the work day is over. I want a bigger project to tackle.Another project of some kind. My sister has a new job she's starting soon and it sounds sofun what she's...

sorry for the sadsack title. I am home now from the market, and gosh darn it, I wish I had someone to talk to, to relateto here at home before I head out to the office for the next few...

can't calm down. time to get on the treadmill.trying to manifest peace and perhaps the physical stuff will be good for my corpus. 

I am trying not to give power to this. I am having a troubling morning. I am tryingto give myself structure and a positive outlook - and an outlook of acceptance so that I can keep on going and...

I have pretty much tried to live in my own world here butit really doesn't fill me up so well really. I take care of myself,I could take care of myself even better, but also doing somethingfor...

sitting here in my apartment, watching BBC News. Things are ok for the most part, thank god!realizing that the negative energy within me, the powerful stuff that keeps me moving forward (and canalso...