malibumark

I am trying not to give power to this. I am having a troubling morning. I am tryingto give myself structure and a positive outlook - and an outlook of acceptance so that I can keep on going and...

I have pretty much tried to live in my own world here butit really doesn't fill me up so well really. I take care of myself,I could take care of myself even better, but also doing somethingfor...

sitting here in my apartment, watching BBC News. Things are ok for the most part, thank god!realizing that the negative energy within me, the powerful stuff that keeps me moving forward (and canalso...

I went to my therapist yesterday - and she gave me a lot to think about.Out of the ordinary, later that day, my Stepmom asked me to spend the nightat their place because she needed some help with her...

I think it's important for me to say, I've been down this road before.Feeling at certain times like I should be able to think my way out of my illness..that I am just not trying hard enough...and now...

I had a good day today. Wasn't so balanced or so perfect but it felt like a good day.Not overwhelming woe or anything like that. I went to work looking at some wisdomthat came my way - and it's...

oh those moments that are tricky.was sitting here after a morning of errands and now watching the news.my mind was grappling with some issues and then it started to speed up.the feelings got to me...

I have been up early. Showered dressed and thenwent to get a coffee. Spent yesterday alone and now I'm alonethis morning as well. I feel kind of breathless, depressed and lonelybut I go to yoga...

lately as I have been either walking a long or watching tv or working...i havenoticed people in all their different forms. I guess as I have been trying to understand my own life -and so I have...

I am home from the office now. Didn't get too much done. I had a hard time focusingand I feel bad about asking to be paid for my time. But I know I did some work - andmy Stepmom urges me that, it is...

treading water right now (here on the other side of the screen from you),needed some downtime and so took the afternoonoff, now I find myself giddy and I think the alone time is making me unravel a...

For some reason today I found myself in touch with my feelings in a new and spastic way (every day serves up new jujubut I couldn't process it) and so then I was very muchaffected by them. I got home...

When I go along in my day at work, I very often dream of being somewhere else.But then I get into the work and my attention gets totally engaged - I get tiredbut then I come home to my single life...

I think the journey of any man and woman will always be incomplete.I have so found the need to covet my thoughts and epiphanies in a way tovalidate and promote that I have somehow found health - that...

I am home now from work. Things went ok I think in terms of what I did.I had a brief encounter with the sanitation worker at the dumpsters...it was totallyweird but it made me think of how hard that...