malibumark

I was feeling anxious and so I took another walk. The only walk that seemed worthy enoughwas one with a reward at the end of it. So I went to the bakery again and bought a personal sizedbanana cream...

I am alone with my thoughts and I'd like to chat with someone. I am going to wash up after this.Do the dishes that I left from last night and then change my clothes and then maybe go get a...

a therapist a long time ago suggested I was trying to perfect myself.I really didn't agree with her - but I suppose I was trying to grow and give my best.I was talking to my current therapist about...

Yesterday I wrote a journal and still have it in DRAFT mode. For some reason I feel it's too bizarreto post.. but maybe I will post it eventually.I find myself relaxed today. Nothing really pressing...

I am with my family right now and I know that when I am alone I take things in differently. I am basically everything I am supposed to be when I am alone, and also everything I hope to be in a weird...

I woke up this morning, not looking forward to the day - I was really gassy and -c----dand I knew that would be a lethal combination for yoga - so I canceled going. I took a showerand then got...

went to the movies today after work. The theater is near my parents' house and so I went over there for a short visitafterward. I am home now, and I have been filling the time by snacking quite a...

I had a good meeting with my therapist. One thing she mentioned that resonated is that “ we all have things we battle our whole lives” . At least she might have said “most of us”. I am...

the new med I am taking helps a great deal but it makes me have a big appetite. Basically, before I know it something is in my mouth. 

was having a bad morning and then realized, rather than paint my day into a grander 'this is my bad life' brush...I decided to just call it a bad day and thought, 'it will get better.' - Back home...

So I woke up with purpose this morning.. as I wrote in the previous journal.I found myself mentally going 'big picture' - like I should find some righteous or major vision for my life and that got...

Getting the morning going here.. I woke up this morning and was waiting for inspiration.. which never comes..In the moments after waking I find myself relating to my body.. .all stiff and hesitant......

I really can't indulge too much in this. I went to my parents' house today and the 'mirror offered' me said I was so manythings that fell short. But really they weren't too much. It's not about me...

I saw my family today, and it was nice. We didn't do much but just hung out at my Dad's house.Now I am home. My brother is coming to my place to spend the night. He will be here around 11p or so.But...

it was a challenging day. it isn't over yet... I made a few mistakes at work and was sloppy and itjust felt like my decision making process wasn't so good.I also watched my mood today - "watched" is...