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I went to my brother's house today and then came home and did some other things. I decided togo to the animal shelter and play with the cats. On the way to the cats' living room, I stoppedand...

My illness has left me at a loss in a lot of waysI do have many assets that I try to focus on...I know my weaknesses but I try and put forth the strongestparts of the strongish parts of me...to build...

just thinking about art and for some reason it struck me that i think art is about expressing truth in a way.I suppose that's nothing earth shattering but it certainly gives me a focus and some...

trying to be kind to myself and trying to make my day count. I feel like I need an excuse to come onhere and talk about something significant but all in all, I just like socializing with you guys if...

It's weird how we must learn to persevere through our struggles and yet too much can cause ill health and another break. We need to learn emotional intelligence to learn to manage and persevere and...

 i understand that I need to push myself forward no matter how I feel - I mean - I don't have to be happy - and the mixture of aggression or whatever 'may' be there - but I'll move forward and get...

I am thinking of that title more in the Leonard Cohen sense of the word.I keep hearing voices and it is a blow to my confidence.I keep on growing and evolving each day and so I must learn to findmy...

this is kind of an addendum to my last journal. today i was kind of focusing on 'being all the things I am supposed to be' and then while sitting in front of the tv and getting anxiety i realized a...

I know I question things a lot...all in the pursuit of understanding "life", and my life specifically as well.I find myself kind of just taking it all real carefully and that's OK. I'll go to the...

I have been feeling mighty dismal this morning. Feeling in the face of being rebuffed I felt like my life was worthless. I have been trying not to focus on the negative but the worried jumbly mind...

I had a bad encounter this afternoon...and it upset me...and so on the drive home I nearly started to just not go for the errands I had hoped to do earlier. Instead of shoving it offfor another day...

I can't believe I ate the WHOLE THING...The day before Thanksgiving I binged on PannetoneI ate the whole cake of it and dranks some whiskey and spiced cider.Then came Thanksgiving where I ate and...

all this writing, all these thoughts,I've started to recognize what I wantand how and when to give it to myself..loving yourself isn't about being perfect or reaching 'perfection'. it's about...