malibumark

 i understand that I need to push myself forward no matter how I feel - I mean - I don't have to be happy - and the mixture of aggression or whatever 'may' be there - but I'll move forward and get...

I am thinking of that title more in the Leonard Cohen sense of the word.I keep hearing voices and it is a blow to my confidence.I keep on growing and evolving each day and so I must learn to findmy...

this is kind of an addendum to my last journal. today i was kind of focusing on 'being all the things I am supposed to be' and then while sitting in front of the tv and getting anxiety i realized a...

I know I question things a lot...all in the pursuit of understanding "life", and my life specifically as well.I find myself kind of just taking it all real carefully and that's OK. I'll go to the...

I have been feeling mighty dismal this morning. Feeling in the face of being rebuffed I felt like my life was worthless. I have been trying not to focus on the negative but the worried jumbly mind...

I had a bad encounter this afternoon...and it upset me...and so on the drive home I nearly started to just not go for the errands I had hoped to do earlier. Instead of shoving it offfor another day...

I can't believe I ate the WHOLE THING...The day before Thanksgiving I binged on PannetoneI ate the whole cake of it and dranks some whiskey and spiced cider.Then came Thanksgiving where I ate and...

all this writing, all these thoughts,I've started to recognize what I wantand how and when to give it to myself..loving yourself isn't about being perfect or reaching 'perfection'. it's about...

I have been thinking about 2 things this morning.-Being ok with a mixture of depression and happiness, finding my intention and going forth..-and then also I was listening to the radio and the...

I woke up this morning and then folded the laundry and then went to yoga class.I was so neither here nor there about the day - I just went - and realized that it's okor I decided it was ok to not...

I went to work today and then came home. Did an errand for my stepmom and then went for Chinese food. Guilty pleasure. Now I am lying on the couch and watching Ricks Steves' European Christmas. Was...

I went to work this morning and as you might have read I was struggling but I pushed through.At a certain point, the pressure of what I was obsessing over, made me lose my heart.. it's like it...