a good day
I started the day feeling so well, so rested and in touch with my place in the world. I was yearning for
contact and I realized how social I actually am .. I got stuck on an idea I had yesterday
about my feelings of inadequacy - my fear of not being loved...but it's ridiculous - just
because I don't feel it at the very moment - doesn't mean it's not there. That "leap of love"
I thought of it as.. To rather than fear its lack of presence I resolved to just reassured myself,
to leap inside.
So the day is starting, has started. I did some light chores and shopping and slowly my sense
of enthusiasm, my sense of drive grew more and more..I may at times not know who I am when
I am not with others...but that leap - and that inner strength are coming to me today to get on
with my day - to believe, to take care, to build. It's a good thing. I hope you guys are having a good
day. I am thinking about you my friends and if you need to reach out, I am here! :) xx peace!
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Dunno Marko. . . My own feelings of inadequacy make it pretty hard to love myself and without self love, the absence of an important love in my life is more than a feeling. Without self love, can I really love from the heart?
Or am I lost in questions again? ? ? Some days it really sucks being a questioner. I keep getting the right answer to the wrong question.
Go easy arfie. Try and see yourself in commonality and this also reminds me of a line from the poet
Mary Oliver :
“Love yourself. Then forget it. Then, love the world.”
I am not sure if I entirely agree with her but I think for me self love and loving others is like two
bubbles sometimes touching - sometime hovering apart - sometimes interconnecting/overlapping. I don't know
if we should think of the perfect idea but rather just have faith that you are doing the best you can..hold on to maybe
being the example you want to see in the world and have compassion that others are trying and yet are probably experiencing the struggle from where they came from that formed them...make sense?
The mystery. xx