MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- Ok, maybe I do feel like talking. I just wish there was a tangible person to talk to. You're all real, but you're also so walled off. No tone. No facial expression. No hugs. No smiles. It's like I'm living the Truman show, being cheered on by an...
- It's been a rough year but I'm thankful. I have a new anxiety medication to take with Zoloft and we are probably going to change to a different antidepressant soon. But there's a lot going on so I'm holding out for a bit. I just wanted to check...
- I keep having moments where I think I've been fine and then something happens and my counselor very logically explains that what I experienced was normal for someone with PTSD. That makes me so angry. I had gotten comfortable. I'd started feeling...
- In addition to my kiddos surgery and following respiratory issues then diagnosis with asthma and reactions to asthma meds that kept her awake....yes, I said in addition....I felt more exhausted than I ever have in my life and I thought that was...
- The last ten days have been a whirlwind. Emotionally, I feel like I’ve just finished running a marathon.came home Friday. Kept up with meds. She complained of belly pain and wouldn’t eat or drink. Saturday morning this was worse. She was crying....
- my two year old did great in surgery but we are now a little nervous about her cough. Lungs have sounded clear since June but she’s had pneumonia twice in the last six months and her lungs were full of green mucus. It was difficult for them to...
- Tomorrow is surgery. Soon to be ex may be there.Shes two, almost three No food after midnight No drink after 8amShes not eating tonight Hasnt wanted to see DaddyReally anxious about it, biting me, screaming and crying, waking up screamingSays...
- I rarely post when I'm doing okay, because I convince myself that I will jinx things. But I'm being brave, because I'm realy okay. I have some peace.I live in Florida. I've been praying that this storm turns and goes back out into the sea. We may...
- Do we all just become statistics one day?
- Do you ever feel paranoid?like everything is working against you?like everyone you meet is someone else?like everyone knows everything?like everyone hates you?like ppl on DS are people in your real life and you’re scared to say anything?
- Talking to my tiny kids means talking to their Dad when they're with him.He's been reasonable lately. Some of that is reasonable. Some of it is "reasonable," in that he's not a name calling, finger pointing, money hording, etc. person. But he's...
- Ever seen Frozen?Elsa tries so hard to has everything under control and be who everyone expects her to be....(me, trying not to show the world I have anxiety and depression issues, among other things)She keeps people at a distance to keep them...
- Yesterday started out great. I showered, got us all to our places on time and enjoyed my interacting with clients. Prior to break someone told me to call the boss ASAP. I did. He asked for my uniform and shoe sizes because my promotion is here!...
- my counselor commended meI have been a self care rocker lately. It’s been hard to be my normal self and I haven’t pushed it. I’ve done what’s necessary and loved on my kiddos and had compassion for myself.today I told her about all the...
- I have been really triggered and anxious and experiencing a lot of dissociation lately. So I checked out on sunday and had a very quiet day. I needed this. But I’m also feeling kinda sad that no one really checked on me. I’m always at church. I...